LifE's a CuPpa oF cHocOLatE GoO!! =)

a update in like forever!

2009-05-05T20:06:00.002+08:00

OMG! my blog has nearly died... okay mayb it died so its about time it will be revived! hahaha! so alot of things has been happening lately!

last week, i got hit by heat stroke and then i had a viral fever and throat infection that ended me up into hospital and like during that period of time lots of things that would affect my life took place... first thing, i had to quit working at sentosa!! ): this was due to the fact i cant take too much sun heat and u know sentosa is an island so thus is kinda like a bad job for me.... so yeah... i had to leave the sentosa attractions group sadly...

and no, i'm not gonna find another job cause i'll patintly wait for my ns to come! hahaha! so yeah... graduation period is coming soon! 27th may! oh wells... i miss school alot too.. it feels sop awkward not to go school, not to go to MM club or council anymore.... so weird... sigh...

then, due to me being sick, i guess i grew apart from someone whom i realy cared alot for and i guess that person felt neglected in a way and mayb its all my fault and this illness and things just changed... no matter how much i care it wouldnt be the same anymore, no matter how i try to salvage it, it wouldnt be like it was before any of this ever happen.... sigh... if only u knew how much i feel for u.... oh wells, i'm going to like have to move on with my own life i guess... if things are meant to be... it will be, i guess... =/

it's like, i wished that time had stood still during that time just like u said.... just the two of us in our own world... we could be with each other and not worry about a thing.... how much things have changed after i got sick.... haiz....

then like, not alot of people know this, this coming Friday, i'll be going KL for 3 weeks for some reason i cant tell online... hahaha... so yeah, there goes my life.... oh wells things happen... and i can only tell u its due to me getting sick also... why? go figure....

oh wells... thats all! i love you guys! :D

update, well sorta

2009-04-14T22:06:00.001+08:00

hey hey! i know i'm like dead and all but have just no motivation to update so yeah! hahahahaha! like really not much time at hand to update and all so yeah, sorry people!

anyways, i have finished my 3years of education in SP! congrats so now waiting for enlistment for ns! and i'm working at sentosa for the time being.... yeap.... tt's about it!

OMFG!! HAHAHAH! hello all!!! :D

2009-02-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

hi hi hi!!! i know u all lovely homies like seriously missed me! and like look at me... i haven been blogging/updating for almost a month or so i think!!! WOW! that is like damn lon glong shit hole timeee! hahaha!!!

ok so let me update u guys on certain stuffs.... so yeah, i have unofficially graduated from SP and i have no exams like way way cool! YAY! my FYP was completed the way it was and it looks so f-ing glam and chic.... and i'm like super dark and tanned as compared to last time thanks to lots of swimming and exposure to the sun... damn.... ): i needa get back to looking after my complexion and all....

NEED TO LOOK GOOD FOR FRESHMEN CAMP! D:

so yea.... then i have done alot of things which i'm very proud of during my 3 years in poly and i'm so happy i have made this far.... and yeah!! :D ok, so now just waiting for NS to come by and all the other shits to start filling up my life again! D:

so yeah, pretty much a boring stay at home guy now and then... looking for other jobs besides tuition and like yeah... my life past few weeks have been clubbing and movieing non stop so someone pls help me kick that bad habit (clubbing).... hahahaha!

so yeah thats about it for now.... hey.... at least i updated!!! and i'm well and betetr than ever!! ((:

i love u all who love me..... and yeah.... i love u too! (:

update! (:

2009-01-19T12:23:00.002+08:00

well after much un updating... i'm here for a short update... i'm just being lazy as per normal and well there's nth much which i wanna update about anyways... :D

so yeah, right not my mess in life is slowly being cleared and i hope things will get better... i always hope for a better tomorrow, cause we all should never give up on hope no matter how tiny it is cause when we believe, things CAN come true... (:

in life, just like in fairy tales, there are happy endings if we wanna... :D
LOL... so yah... so lazy liao...... :P cya

SPINNOVEX IS OVER! BITCHES!

2009-01-12T11:04:00.002+08:00

OMFG! Spinnovex is like finally over! the days of sleepless nights due to ROBOLEON is finally over cause well its over... hahaha!

and like i have been sleeping for like a total of 28hours on friday and staurday! hahahahaha... like some babi! WHOOOOO~~~~~~ but its alright... i still have like mini eyebags but my pimples suddenly went *poof*... so glam... so yeah...

was kinda fun la, but oso kinda boring... (: so yeah! its over!!

SPinnovex day 2!

2009-01-09T08:43:00.001+08:00

hahaha... well its the morning of the 9th of january and i'm like sitting down and bloggin while waiting for the rest to come over! :D
i wonder whr they are right now... =.= always so late la, never on time... tsk tsk...

oh wells last night managed to catch 5hours of sleep so i'm kinda pumped up although i might faint anytime... :D anyways, ytd was a nice day ok.. and well it was kinda tiring but still nice... but i know today will be even more tiring! hahaha!

SPinnovex

2009-01-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

OMFG!! SPinnovex is like super killer... so many things r like happening and its like super duper hard to cope right now.... i'm pushing myself to my limits but i know its for a good cause... hahha.. oh wells lots of things have been happening lately so its like been difficult... ):

oh wells...2days more....

BOO YAH BITCH!

2009-01-05T08:09:00.003+08:00

WEEE OOOHH~~ *sweet escape tune*

BOO YAH BITCHES! :D MAMA's BACK! D: *meow*

OMG, so yeah i was emo for several days staright since new year but yeah, i'm like back to the old me... the one who is like totally over things and wonderful! why? cause i know myself best.. HAHA! anyways like yeah, recently i've been doing things i would never have imagined doing! like little little stuff, dun worry, i'm not selling myself off the streets cause like yeah, it would be too much of a discount.. LOL.... (i dun even know what i just typed but hell yeah)

so yeah, fyp is like great!!! OMG! i cant beleive it SPinnovex is like coming and KARMA is like on my side for the past few years so yeah... i'll hope for the best but always prepare for the worst! : then like yeah, so those who are free during 8, 9th January which is like this CUMING thursday and friday (dun try to ignore u freaking readers!!!) do come to W1115 at SP erm IPC to see my B-E-A-U-TIFUL project! but pls la, like call before u come else i like so unglam... LOL...

anyways, i'm gonna live my life back for my grandma! i swear she's awesome.. nah just kidding but i think emoness is just meant for sad and i am not sad people, but i know a few who just cant accept it... :D so yeah... oh weekedns we're fab, made tons of frens and like been out like so mother fucker! HAHAH! i love me! *hugs*

so yeah during fyp over the weekends did some fun and crazy thing and my domokuns turn on each other... hahah btw, fyi i bring 3 stuff toys to school everyday, 1 is baby domo, 2 is mama domo, 3 is this chameleon i bought which happens to have the same birthday as me(like super cool i know)! hahaha... so yeah did smth funny so see the photo!!

baby domokun got BACKSTABBED by mam domokun! HAHAHA! *RAWR! so eff-ing cute right?

anyways i'm back to my project... cya...

life is life, it comes and go..

2009-01-03T00:28:00.003+08:00

well, i think 2009 is gonna be one of the most depressing years of my life. i swear to god. i dunno, alot of small things have be happening around and i dunno wat more to expect in life. sometimes life is like a meteor, it burns so bright in the sky, so beautiful but then it hits u, it makes a hole in u and even destroys a part of u.

moments, the last awhile but they burnt out and die in time.... some of us, we take moments in life for granted, so i've been told, i do sometimes, but i do try my best to do wat i can.. i know it doesnt seem right, but yeah, i dunno.. in fact i feel terrible, i feel horrible, all my life, i dont know man... i just want to stop time and be in my own space. i dun really share my thoughts to people and i just bottle them up cause i'm not very open... i dunno, mayb it my fault i'm so miserable.

so yeah, i'm in the point of my life, where i need to just find a something to fill my time completely so i dun get diistracted, but honestly its impossible. and yeah, wat i've heard its true, wat i wrote its true, its just how i feel, so its me... i saw smth in me, and mayb its just been in me but its just never been out.. so yeah.. life is temporray, u mayb die in the blink of an eye, so life it to the fullest, speak ur mind, let the world know u r part of it, that u have a role to play.

u know its true. yeah, it's never easy, i will try, cause yeah, i wont give up. (:

new year stuffs! (:

2009-01-02T20:06:00.007+08:00

so yeah, new year eve was half day in poly... so then i went to club after fyp-ing and then ask them if they wanted to go anywhere! everyone was super bored and dead so i decided to ask them go to west coast park(old ginza plaza) to like check it out and like walk around!!

so yeah... let some picture do the talking...

west coast plaza!

so we hadnt had lunch so decided to have Fish & co. for lunch! oh btw only alvin miswan fart and me went thr! hahaha....

the butter mussels.. (: *yummy*
the aftermath of hungry people! D:

miswan munching with something in his fingers... hmm...

so yeah, we decided to get the seafood feast thing... D:

crazy alvin! D:

it was gone! :D *poof*

hungry people... i'm sure u couldnt tell... =x

oh... alvin's ice creation....

so yeah, fish and co was like in the anniversary month or smth so they gave away ballong sculpture to CHILRDEN... haha... so yeah, thr was this really pretty and nice girl working there, so i saw a ballon sculture of a helicopter, i asked her could i have it... so she said of course... so sweet! :D then i went around playing with it... LOL!

tt's me... looking kinda stupid but funny la... HAHA!

so after tt i decide to just see fireworks! sian right? so some pictures i manged to capture...

yeah... i know my photo taking sucks, but yea... xD

i know i think too much, sometimes these thought make me a better person, and at least i know that sometimes its always too late... but maybe it's just how it is... (:

i'm not a bastard, i try not to be, but sometimes, it's just so difficult for people to understand certain things... hmmm... i'm only human, and a human with no soul.... so yeah, i feel kinda empty but yeah, i know tt i can fill it up slowly, with time... (:

school's a bore....

2008-12-31T08:55:00.002+08:00

So yeah the previous poting is like kinda deep and emo but yeah, it's factual and if only people would realise about themselves sooner. i mean its true, people just need to realise their own self instead of being told by someone else.

And last night, i had another incident. Involving 3 parties, including myself of course and it turned out kinda like an awkward moment. i mean really. and i'm sorry for any bad feeling i have cause but it's really not my fault, and i know i'm not perfect material and yeah. but i am who i am. (:

anyways, so right now, i'm like in school! doing FYP! i finally completed my brochure for my fyp la. so cool u know so i wanna show u people! :D

middle piece
this is the front and back..

so yea, i'll get back to my fyp now... cya!

Self Reflection

2008-12-30T18:34:00.006+08:00

Well, for a change, this post will be in perfect english, or at least I will try my very best to type in proper complete english. Because this has a special and proper meaning.

Today, a friend of mine told me something which I would consider quite factful but at the same time I wanted to argue with what he had to say. In the end, I decided not to, cause he already had his thoughts in his head and it would be almost impossible to change his mindset. So after talking all that he had to give, the conversation ended with, "Don't bother talking to me about it," and then, "Don't bother to reply," and finally "Thanks."

And so i thought to myself, I have yet lost another friend? I mean if you know me well enough, you would have come to realise that friends come first (no.1) in my life, followed by my lover (no.2), family (no.3), and finally career/job (no.4). The thought of losing a friend is greatly saddening for me and I felt terrible cause it might have been my fault but at the same time, it wasn't entirely my fault. Sigh.

I have this other friend. He confessed to me that he had a few friends, friends that he could and would talk to, 2 to be exact. One was his classmate, another was me. I thought he was kidding my balls, but I realised that was the honest truth. And I felt bad, cause he told me that even if he doesn't have many friends, he is sad, yes, but he treasures them to the fullest extend. I thought to myself, hmm.

Sometimes I wonder if i was born retarded or anything cause I care more about others like x100 than I do for myself. Even sometimes to the extend I am so nice that people start stepping on me and treating me like I'm something not someone. I admit, I'm not totally nice to everyone, but I do try my best to make people happy and laugh. I always try to make people feel like they are a part of something, not apart from something.

Every single moment I get, I will think I feel bad for the things I have done, to my god, my religion, my friends, my family and I wonder why I have done them. But everytime I want to change to a better person, I realised I'd still be condemned by whomever or whatever so it's bring me back to just being horrible.

So before I snap out of this transition, I would like to reach down to the bottom of my heart to ask for forgiveness to god, to my friends, to my family, for the deceat, the lies, the wrong doings, the attitude, the heartpain I have caused or anything else that I might have done to you. Please forgive me. I don't want to die a bad person. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I have polluted the young minds with words I should use discretly and sparingly and not on a sentence basis. I'm sorry for talking behind people's back. I'm sorry for all my mistakes, known or not known to me. If I could change it, I wouldn't, honestly no, cause those we the precious memories that I will forever keep in my heart, although it was wrong, the time spend was memorable cause of my friends.

So I asked myself, why have I turned out the way I am today? Is it because of my family? I came from a family that is together and not in piece. Is it because of my friends? But I was the one influencing them. Is it because of the media? But I believe that the media is just crap and just for entertainment. So I looked deep down inside myself, and I finally found the answer i knew ages ago.

Although I had a full family, although i have friends, although I'm not poor, although I have my share of adventure, was I happy? No. You can consider me a fool, "Hey Zaid, you have everything anyone else would ever want, you shouldn't be so selfish, look at other 3rd world countries like Africa (why is it always this country). They have more to be unhappy about!" And so my answer to that would be, although the people in Africa are poor, diseased, dying, sad, at least they have each other, cause they know how every single individual is going through. They are in the same dilemma.

But as for me, I'm not happy because, I never saw the true meaning of happiness in life. I never really got my proper individual life. So maybe I just am being selfish to others. And so I am sorry. I'm sorry I can't be happy for myself. I'm sorry for being a disease to the human race, being someone just walking around aimlessly without purpose.

So for my New Year's resolution, I will be a better child, a better friend, a better human and most importantly, a better me. I will try, so i won't know. Nothing in this world is a 100%, but we can try.

Let's make this world a better place, a place we want our children, our future generation of leaders to take charge and keep peace and fairness. The world isn't gonna last much longer so let's do with what we have left.

With Love.Anything IS Possible.

fuck faces!

2008-12-29T19:39:00.003+08:00

so yeah... today was the first day of the last few days in my SP life!!! OMG! i cant believe i'll be graduating school soon but at the same time i know its gonna be sad to leave some of those memories and junior behind cause we've been such great frens! but nontheless will always stick ard!!

so yeah, came school on time today... my dad drove me to school... zzzz... makes no difference since i live 5mins aways....haha! then like went straight to IPC and waited for the rest... i had planned to do brochure for our group product/fyp so i asked everyone to dress a little more presentable...

then guoliang came with like a shirt la! cool shit... then cheese came in a normal t-shirt... and ashraf and me wore polo's... hahaha... so we used guo liang's phone to take a few photos and i told them to have fun with it cause i dun want it to seem so boring... :D so i'll post the 4 photos that were used for the real brochure! D:

act cute guo liang.. xD

the ever so seductive me.... LOL...

ashraf looking shocked! D:

cheese sucking his cheeks to "try" to get a slimmer look! LOL!! result? FAILURE!

oh, and today i realised smth! LOL..i found out that the sad looking guinea pig guy that i and oliver was following to CMPB was my fren's BF! LOL! i was like super sure i knew him but i dunno from where! LOL... and he complained to soo mei that her fren stalked him all the way to CMPB.. LOL... wth right? i mean yea, i dun stalk people man... so low for me...

so i asked soomei how he knew that i was her fren so she said he saw me on her phone before... so i asked her which picture.. cause must look glam u see...

i look so funny! this was like 14/10/2008 my birthday!!

well right now all i can do is hope and wait..

wat difference does it make?

i have waited for 1mth before,

i have waited for 6mths before,

i have waited for 1year before,

i have waited for 2 years before,

and i have been waiting for the past 6years...

wat difference would 1 or 2 more years make...?

sometimes we wait cause we believe,

sometimes we wait cause we try,

sometimes we wait cause we wanna know,

but i'll wait,

not just cause i believe, i try and i wanna know,

but cause thats the only thing left to do.. (:

and so i wait.....

yeah man...

2008-12-28T21:49:00.001+08:00

Kau membuat, ku berantakan.
Kau membuat, ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat, ku tak berdaya.
Kau menolak ku, acuhkan diri ku.

[chrous 1]

Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
Meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,
Ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.

[chorus 2]

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini, membunuh ku.

[Chorus 1& 2]

[Interlude]

[Reff]

Woo… Hu~u… Haa…
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini........ membunuh ku.

):

I was bored... LOL..

2008-12-28T02:22:00.003+08:00

so lately if u noticed, I HAVE BEEN BLOGGIN IN GREAT AMOUNTS! mayb cause i finally have smth interesting happening here and there? hahah! :D

so yeah got his from fart's blog! lets try!

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

alright. here it goes:

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed alot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart. (am i?)
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone, I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on my friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance in my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment.(VERY)
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I've worked at a McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people. (last time)
I adore bright colours. (orange! (:)
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with lots of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at least one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist, I only clean my room when necessary.
I love being happy. (like now)
I am an adrenaline junkie

anyone up for it... go do it... its ur choice... cya! (:

2008 comes to a end.... ):

2008-12-28T00:50:00.009+08:00

well, as u all mayb have noticed (unless of course u have been living in a cave all this time *gasp*) year 2008 is coming to a quick end in 3days!! so yeah, a friend of mine told me to like reflect on the best moments and friends who have made 2008 the year that it is! so that is just wat i am going to do right now!

its so amazing how 365days can passby like so fast like in a instance? i could still recalll just a year back... how sweet those memories were!

well i have so many many things i dunno which to start with... so i'll start with my secondary school frens first.. QUEENSWAYANS! my click of frens whom usually go out once a week to either, movie, lan, club, eat, chillax or anything actually! haha... these few people are : victor, wenshen, cyril, ahdi, debao, jingzhe, zhihe!

victor: woo! Bettle bug! he's like one of my better frens who's always there to go out with me and have dinner anything... and this guy is like the rest and always making up joke and making me crack a laugh and smile... he is oso one of the guys who got me hooked on DOTA! but i thank him for that! victors always the nice fellow up for anything and definately a great fren! (: thanks vic!

wenshen: haha... wenny, doggy, haha... wat can i say, he's been a great fren and also just wonderful... he's pretty quiet sometimes but he's ok... and he's always up for something! thanks man! u've done good things!

cyril: haha... this dude, i still rmber meeeting him for the first time... i think he didnt like me well... but yeah, he's ok now... LOL.. and he fears my touch! LOL... but cyril is very steady one and he's like the cool guy, always very cool and chill! (:

ahdi: ahdi is like the cutest boy ever with his side parting hair and all! haha... and he's always so nice to everyone and he's a good man inside... haha... always up for a game of dota! :D i still rmber skipping library study sessions with him just to play dota la! LOL... cool shit! ahdi is a a true fren! (:

debao: ahaha... he's always cracking LAME JOKES! i swear to god but yeah, he has a nice and brother way of speaking and always very friendly... (:

jingzhe: haha! OMFG! this racist bastard! and he's my fren and i'm proud of it... jingzhe is always naming people randomly and making fun of people which is actully very entertain and we call him ahzhe! not to forget, he's gonna get married with aini, but not so soon la.. give it a few year! :D

zhihe: haha... the poser a.k.a constantine(wtf right?) well but he's been a close fren since sec 1.. hahah... he's always trying to be cool and trying new trends but yeah, just stick with ur style man... but u're still my fren! (:

these 7 have made a big impact in filling my saturday afternoons and also changing part of my life... cause they have helped shaped me into the person i am today and i'm grateful for it! u guys were the best man! i love y'all! D: *awww*

other secondary school frens are like: novita, dian, babet and katrina!

novita: haha... she's so cute and she's like a really nice person to talk to and be frens with.. although i'm not very close to her, she's a charm! :D

dian: haha... i enjoyed malay lessons partly because of her.. always talking to me and entertain me with all the nonsense and stuff... and yeah, wonderbra does wonders right? HAHAH!! she's such a sweetheart! (:

babet: she's the big girl next door! hahaha... always doing 'rituals' with her to debao! opps! miss those times babe!

katrina: haha... she's like my ultimate babe... i knew her since primary one can! and we're like still besties! hahaha... she's always making me laugh talkin about just everything under the freaking hot sun! and she's like super sweet and nice too! hahaha!(: love you girl!

so yeah after secondary lets go fast forward!

Singapore Poly! hahaha... so many people so yeah... i'll start with MM CLUB people! omg, this club has chnaged me and shaped me to be the leader and great person i am today.... it got me out of the shy and me comfort zone to be my best! (: i love MMEC! aww... the MMEC people are : fart, tohlin, eugene, miswan, huishan, oliver, denan, alvin, alex, zulaikha, reena, ivan, danial, wenbin, farhan, timothy, fengyuan... *loves*

fart: she's like my bff/gf/daughter and she's special to me! she's like the one girl in poly i can talk to about everything and stuff! and she's like totally glamour just like me and we r like two peas in a pod! D: not to forget, she's also such a sweet girl and so nice and always ready to go out! and we like totally think almost the same sometimes! *loves*

tohlin: haha! i knew her since first day of poly but club brought us closer! she's such a dear and she's like a very rare type of girl and is totally special! tohlin thank you for being there all these three years! (:

eugene: he's a carfreak! LOL... loves cars many many... he's a very nice guy actually, and always ready to listen to watever i have to rant about! :D

miswan: MARSHMELLOW! he's so cute although i like to harrass him all the time he's still cool with it... sorry miswan! D: u still love me right! haha... also our pro photographer! thanks all this time man! :D

huishan: ms shanny! she's such a sweet small little girl.... she is always all out for frens and always ready to have some fun definately! :D and yeah, she's always very nice and always thinking for others first! :D

oliver: mr emo! haha... now with his mohawk hair.. he's like a brother but he's totally nice... oliver is a person u can count on! (: thanks mohawk man! although i not very nice to u sometimes but yeah, its just me smtimes.. LOL... but u r a good man! LOL.. hope u get ur dream girl!

denan: bangala!! hahaha... i can share my secrets with this guy cause he can keep them! and he's also a very entertaining and fun fren! (: thanks man! hope u and ratna baby last till the end of time! *love*

alvin: crazy little SOB SOB! hahaha... he's like my apprentice this year! hahaha... and he has done a fair good job with all the words picking them up pretty fast! u go man! and yeah, uu're a good person too with a great heart...

alex: hahaha... u and ur china goods... tsk tsk! thanks man!

zulaikha: hahaha... my daughter's daughter! my granddaughter right? hahaha... she's oso another crazy one... i think it runs inside the family! love u!

reena: my daughter's daughter again! hahaha! she's the ms mm lor! dun anyhow play play with her u know.. later she like pounce on u! RAWR!

ivan: hahah... he's a nice fellow and also weird at time! haha! thanks!

danial: hello.... this guys is like fluctuating... but yeah, most of the time horny want to rape me! O: LOL

wenbin: if anyone is a food machine, its wenbin! this guys can eat like continously for a damn long time and he's damn thin la... how does he do it? and he's a very simple and nice guy! (:

farhan: hahah... well thanks man... u're been a great person! (:

timothy: hahaha... this guy is quiet but he can do his job well! very capable person! awesome! thanks!

fengyuan: he's like a senior senior la... haha... and yet some say i look older than him... LOL... must know he's secret to vibrant looks! must be the money! LOL... well he's a nice guys and like my big brother la... and he's always 100% supportive of club! love him!

i dun know wat i would do without u guys in my life... of course it's be boring and also pointless at time... and i'm gonna miss every single one who has been a part of club even those not mention earlier on... rmber me ok? and invite me back... i'm be the next fengyuan but cooler and younger! x) MMEC is my life in poly! ): i'm gonna cry...

other poly people are my FYP GROUP MATES!! ((: they are: ashraf, chee sheun, guo liang! they made the experience of the fyp the most fun fun one i would ever have la! this guys r way cool! ((:

ashraf: thank bro man... this whole fyp journey has been awesome and u like very cool with ur designs and ur jokes! hahah... and how i tempted u to get the ipod touch LOL! hahah.. i'll still rmber it man.. u're awesome man and when u start to talk like to me too! dun worry man our FYP is gonna rock the world!!! thanks alot dude! and yeah, spray the bangala's man! hahah... and i'm gonna get ur ipod! LOL..

chee sheun: aka cheese man! u're the piracy man! u need anythings, heroes, movies, mp3 songs u name it, this guy knows whr's the lobang to get it! wahahaha! really man... chee sheun is a very nice person and he always so nice although i harrass him alot too! LOL... but he wants to sue me! BRING IT ON! LOL... but thanks man! i promise i'll TRY not to harrass u as much! LOL.. :P

guo liang: the genting disease man! hahaha... he's very nice and also very good and hardworking... knew him from cadc camp in year 1 though.. well guoliang is someone who cares alot about wat he does and wants to do it right... thanks man!

so FYP mates, lets chiong this last week and make it happen! our project will outshine the rest! we r the best! cause i believe we area and that's all that matters!! :D

other people like some POLY FRIENDS... lets name some few good ones: shafinaz, abu.... but got alot just just this two i want say la!

shafinaz: haha... met her in year one randomly and we became like super good frens... she's like my awesome bitch and she's always like a good fren always thr to entertain me and surprise me with things! hahaha... so sweet... kill her kill her!! hahaha... and rmber the barbarians! "the drone must die" ahahah... i'm gonna miss those times! thanks BIATCH!

abu: mr. ubaidah! hahaha... he's damn cool and funny man... and he's always there to crack some laughs.. love this kinda frens... and he always has weird opinions and makes things all so funny! hahaha... how awesome right? thanks man!

another bunch in poly i like to thank is SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC STUDENT UNION COUNCIL AY 08/09 but got so many inside and i lazy write for all so i gonna say in general! for the ones that voted me to be the chariman for council i'm greatly honoured and happy that u did so cause it has given me so many oppourtunities and made my life at SP awesome although more busy with alot more things to care for and think of but yeah... i hope i have made council 08/09 a wonderful and fun year for u guys that u will rmber me in the times to come as the happiest, merriest and most awesome chairman ever! xD

met some awesome frens from council like, christie, marcus, aisyah, diana, ling yi, yangsu, doreen, akasha, darren, charmaine, celeste and many many many more! I LOVE YOU GUYS! hope u love me too!! and i'm gonna miss u when i leave which is pretty soon... ):

i'm almost at the end of the post.... just one last person... not many really knows but yeah who gives a damn as long as i do right? (:

My Christmas ONE: haha.. u're the greatest gift this year... yeah... makes my 2008 complete to a whole... so yeah, it's pretty cool... and yeah, hope many great things will come and yeah, i hope for the best everyday... (: and who knows right? but right now whr i am, i know... (: and we shall see how far it takes us...

(dont bother asking questions about the last person! LOL..)

so yeah, tt about wraps up my 2008!! i love you guys! i love everyone! :D yeah u know it.... c'mon!

i feel different

2008-12-27T18:31:00.003+08:00

haha... oh man..yet another one of those saturdays... pretty much the boring ole' saturdays.. woke up at 8.15am to call Tawan up and then after that i fallen back asleep.. LOL.. amazingly, i woke up shortly at 10am.. so then i laze ard in bed for awhile and then go wash up and turned the computer and tv on.. so yeah, tt's when boredom struck my whole day...

i dunno.. since last night i had well like a weird feeling all of a sudden and it's still there so well mayb it's just haunting me.. BOO! :O so like yeah... i wanted to play dota, had no mood really... just wanted to be outdoor, but i dun like going out alone, sucks balls... =/ and my parents and brother wasnt around and i was home alone and with nth to munch on so i just had a slice of bread for lunch... wonders wat it can do u know!

then i went downstairs for abit to kill time... so yeah, later i just like stoned like infront of the computer for about and hour looking for new wallpapers when i found this two! looks damn nice la!! :D

captain america! (:
this is damn nice! :D

so yeah, then i thought i would go out but then well didnt happen! haha... so i stayed home... haha... watched Ironman & Hancock (i was uber bored) and then like later i'm going down for a jog or smth... i'm seriously tt bored and just get a breather of fresher air..

so now i'm blogging... i already did the post for the SPSU add just needa add the pictures so have to wait for Miswan to gimme the photos! SEND ME Y'ALL! so yeah, i think i shall hop down now... (: cya!

SPSU ADD @ CONRAD! :)

2008-12-27T01:13:00.025+08:00

WARNING! post with tons of photos! : D

haha... so yeah in the morning i went to CMPB to my NS medical check so yeah... suppose to meet oliver at queenstown MRT at like 7.45am but he was like late la... only arrive at 8plus... tsk tsk.... so after he arrive, me and him when to the busstop and took 195 thr... and just our luck, we reached the busstop as the bus reached....yay!

so like neither of us knew the way thr so we were kinda lost people... i mean we have never been thr before wat! haha... but luckily got a guinea pig subject for us to follow!! we knew he was also going for the checkup cause we saw he had the CMPB medical form so yeah, we pretended to be dumb but stalked him...

hahahaha!! so we just followed this sad looking fellow all the way and like yeah he led us straight to CMPB! there was this part, he went to ask the bus driver the direction when the bus came to a stop and we like looked and looked then when he got off we oso got off and trailed him! D: and we reached CMPB

hahaha... i tell u that was the most boring 4hours of my entire life sia! so many people la, and all like so POLY people... then also met justin and liang ming who were also thr taking their tests... hahah... but ok la.... was cool to see all the weirdest tests being carried out! the freaking IQ test is a no brainer thing... LAME!! WEEE~

then like at about 12.30pm we both finished our tests! so oliver when eunos to get his dad's car and i went to school to checkup on the fyp progress!! hahaha... at school met ashraf and cheese and guo liang were playing left for dead... so after that...about 2 went back home... bathed again and got chnaged... wee~

today we had spsu add at conrad hotel it was kinda like a dissapointment but it was ok... hmmm... so yeah, i got my outfit proper and like wee~ down to orchard road asap! hahaha! OMFG! orchard had like a mad traffic congestion la... insane!!! so yeah lucky i made to marina square just in time to meet the rest and we headed off to CONRAD HOTEL!

i met tohlin, eugene, fatin and ivan first at MS...so from there we made our way... :D i swear fatin and tohlin had trouble wearing their heels! hahaha... tolhin walked as if she had big big balls! hahaha! and fatin was walking like "wonderwoman"... MY ASS!

hahah! then the first we met at CONRAD was like denan! looking handsome! and then we saw oliver with his newly cut punk mohawk hairstyle...SERIOUSLY COOL BUT SCARY!! D: (later u see photos) then got miswan oso our camera man! hahaha... and reena wearing all white! and also din looking fabulous!

yeah, the theme was hollywood glamour! and everyone was dressed to kill... hahaha... well, not kill but to be GLAM! LOL... amron was like totally being a camwhore the whole night! *OH DEAR GOD WAT HAVE I DONE* hehe....so yeah, it was okay, it was emceed by SHAN WEE~! veejay from 98.7fm! u know tt guy la.. LOL... anyways....

OMG!!

I HAVE TOTALLY LIKE SHAN WEE'S NUMBER!! AND I"M GONNA EBAY IT!! HAHAH!! BUT FOR THOSE FRIENDS OF MINE WHO WANT HIS NUMBER, U CAN ASK ME... HAHAHA... I GIVE THE NUMBER TO U AT $5/PER DIGIT! HAHA! WELL NOW FESTIVE SEASON I GIVE U 1 FREE NUMBER! :P SO YEAH! *winks*

so yeah lots of photos and camwhoring sessions so watch them! (:

pretty me with a rose outside!
yeah denan shaking it out! :D

the other people... (of non importance)

me and fart! :D wedding continues!

would u like a beer? haha... i'm an awesome bartender! D:

me and christie... (: the hot secretary! *licks*

fart, aisyah and me! (:

me and tohlin! so pretty!

me taking advantage....erm i mean HUGGING xin jie! (:

muacks to tohlin! D: *GASP!*

fatin and me continue our photos shots... *so romantis*

oliver with his punk mohawk hairstyle.... awesome! :D

the ever so hot and BUSTY reena! woo~!

"oh look! its a peanut!" *snap snap*

me, reena, fart and denan... FAMILY! and as u can see... the colour scheme changes from whites to darkest, even skin tone... D:

my hair brushed tattoo! haha... it reads "BAD GIRL"... so funny!

armed and dangerous! RAWR!

taking peanuts while waiting for the doors to open! yummy!

me posing with the shiny cup and fart eating 'glamly'

opps... extra abit... fart and reena!

this christmas tree made from bears! cool right!

i'm peeking *boo*

my ladies... : D

food! (some mushroom with spinach dish)

this was fish with some herbs and spices if i'm not mistaken

slurps... ling yi and ying li having soup!

some weird soup dish.... xD

starters platter (chinese)

my name! vip seats y'all! (BORING) i actually took this home! LOL.. me and a few other?

starters platter (MUSLIM!)

i cant rmber wat this was.. but it was kinda nice... some fish...

me and kian tat's name... :D

me and kian tat... notice his facial expression! __

me and kian tat... outside the ballroom! i hated those suspenders!

pretty siol! :D

me and yang su! (:

me giving chun heng his christmas present! D:

me and ling yi (:

after the ADD me and the gang went to suntec mcdonalds to fill our stomaches... and we reaslised tt mac does a much better job than CONRAD hotel... haha!

btw! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LING YI! (:

CHRISTMAS!!

2008-12-25T17:22:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! :D

SPREAD THE LOVE... (:

love is really unique...i see....

2008-12-25T01:15:00.003+08:00

well who said christmas couldnt get any better?? cause it just did... like a trillion times better than it ever could or would! :D hahaha... xD

so yeah, i just wanna update now cause i had a thought just now in the train... see i was on the NEL toward harbour front... and as u all know we pass by the indian populated areas so there's bound to be a few like going in and out....

so yeah, to most of us, indians r like always critised and made fun of because of several reasons... i dunno why... i do it to i admit.... so then just now on the train an indian guy came in with his thick moustache and hi indian fragrant... haha... he was wearing those hazy tops and grey pants and just acting like a normal person...but...i giggled.... *sob*

then on the next stop... an indian family, grandma, husband and wife and 2 kids(one in the pushing thing and another was being held in the arms of the dad) and another one, father, mother and child, came into the train... and i thought to myself, oh boy one hell of a bad ride... then... smth changed me...

i saw that the indian families, both real loved each other and i could see them caring for their young just like any other race would... i saw them sharing love with each other even if the looked funny with the moustache they still loved each other... then i looked ard, i saw some people looking and them and giggling and just giving them the look and i thought to myself, but arent they normal people too, just mayb a little different?

i mean, they love, the have 2 eyes, 2 legs, 1 head and so on.... arent they still human? yet everytime we see them, we insult and make fun of them cause they r just... different....but they dun seem to care at all, cause they have each other.... they knew they were different yet they were still who they r! and i saw smth i should have seen long ago... people dun accpet different things...

examples, gay, lesbians, retards, mental people.... so many to choose from... these people are being labeled every single time, cause why....they r just different.... but i ask u... wat makes u, YOU....wat makes u special? the answer is being different from other ard you... so actually this people r pretty special...just that mayb we r too thick headed to see that... and mayb just mayb if we saw tt, people would have decent lifes... (:

i swear i will learn to respect people more....

: D

christmas with the mm homies.. :D

2008-12-24T08:41:00.019+08:00

hello all!!! ytd, 23rd december was the christmas day out for our MMEC groupie!! hahaha... so yeah, as per normal i had fyp in the morning...boring...zzzzz....and which i endeed up coming only at 11am! hahaha... and i left at 1.15pm to catch up with the rest!! D:

so yeah, the rest of them, shanny, tohlin, fart, reena, zac, miswan, alvin were at the national museum looking at the singapore history gallery... so yeah, they took lots of photos but i didnt wanna put them up cause i'm not inside so yeah... LOL... but i just wanted to post one funny one! HAHAHAH! cant stop laughing looking at it....

tohlin working on her gun... HAHAH!

so yeah after that i popped up right infront of them and hahaha! they were shocked.... D: so got many photos...

group photo!! (:

group photo2... *brighter*

me and shanny... (:

christmas tree photo... :D

then after that we walked all the way to city halll... shall not post pictures of the journey cause my blogger like will lag due to so many pictures! D:

unglam shot.... xD

my so called "mat rep" bag which is nice lor!

oh ya.... this is wedding photo no.1! LOL... got a whole edition!

then from city hall we went to marina square to chill..... and camwhore ard i guess.... haha!

me & zac!

family photo.... me:daddy, fart:my daughter, zac and reena: my granddaughters... i feel old

wedding photo 2.. :D

me and reena... (when she was about to leave)

rofl... BALLSSS!!! *ooooo*

snap snap snap! LOL..

HAHAH! alvin trying out to be a barbie girl... LOL...

sex toys for children... *battery not included*

awww.... sleeping beauty...

fluffy bear! :P

fruit of my labour..... D:

candid sia! :D

awww.... *woof*

boob check.... *yeah, they r still there alright*

our christmas decorations! D:

barbie wannabe... x_x

pssst.... her secret to great boobs...

zzzzzz..

we r not together... just being retarded.... HAHAHA!

dinner time!! :D

eugene and toh...

smile! :D

ahhhh!!!

food!

more food! (:

denan and oliver finally came! :D

trip to toilet turned camwhores.... D:

quick snap... LOL

group photo! :D

ohhhh... O_O presenting unwrapping...present time! :D baking cookies! excited little fatin! hahaha! D:

and it is.... underwear too!!! :D

me and tohlin! hahaha!hahaha... naughty lil sucker..eugene is so pretty... xD city link malls... :D
rawr! haha!

yeah... and after that went to ice camp christmas bbq at school and bought hmv vouchers for the present trading... hahaha... i was losing ym mind thinking of wat to buy... LOL..

then home...!

although i was out the whole day, it felt like i was close all the time...mayb tt's wat they call being one..

oh yes oh yes! :D

2008-12-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

oh well today was another good day!

had laughs all thru the day and i saw smth different in me than my past... how wonderful?

(:

quizzes again! BORED!! xD

2008-12-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

i am?! i AM! :D

i like so know right? HAHAH!

ROFL !!! xD

tt's all folkies!

i'm so freeaking awesome! D:

2008-12-21T22:51:00.003+08:00

today was a wonderful day out... i'm glad i made the decisions i made today... yeah, truly didnt regret it at all... so yeah, went ard singapore today... had a wonderful day with lotsa memories (:

in other news....
so yeah... its the 21st decmeber 2008 today, the end of the week.... which also means.....

1. christmas is coming (YAY)
2. spsu add is coming (FABULOUS)
3. ns medical checkup is coming (BOOO)
4. something fun is coming (OMFG... WAT?)
5. pot luck christmas is coming (Steamboat la sian)
6. new year 2009 is coming (5....4....3...2...1.... HAPPY NEW YEAR)
7. hui shan birthday is coming (shanny is 18!)
8. Jianyao(i still do treat him as a fren) birthday is coming (hornyboy is 18)
9. i'm graduating soon (i feel old.... yet free!)
10. last week of holidays r coming! (SADDED)
11. Eugene and tohlin 1yr anniversary is coming! (CONGRATS BITCHES!!!)
12. fyp is coming to an end (i did it?!?!)
13. SPinnovex is coming!!! (AHHHHHH!!! end of the world)
14. Someone is CUM-ing (D: GASP! [wat is this doin here])

LASTLY!!!!

15. Can go new year shopping!!! (OMFG YAYNESS!)

so yeah.... tt's a list of things u can see me b loggin about... except no.14.... that is private... i mean, u think i'm running some porno blog here?!!?! no way....EVER!!! ok.... mayb not ever, but mayb when i get bored.... xD just kidding... so yeah.... see u all ard... (:

P.S: GEEKY SPECS ARE WAY COOL AND HOT! D:

2008-12-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

hello all my fellow readers... hahaha...

so yeah, i've been window shopping again and guess wat i saw at zara this time!!! OMG!!! this like zara shoes.. its actually blue but in this picture its black for some reason... LOL... really pretty and chic! :D i want!

ta-daaahh!!! D: so nice~

yeah, then like today i was so bored during my lunch hour break i decide to go and have a hair cut.... and the result.... i look like a little kid... LOL.... OMFG!!! sad but ok la....

sad little me ):

oh wells... cya ard people!

quizzes

2008-12-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

quizzes!!! i'm bored...

OMG SO TRUE!!!!

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my oh so fab/fierce groupmates.!! :D

2008-12-17T10:37:00.004+08:00

1. Do you have secrets?
- yes! :D

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
- nah.... older better! :D (experience)

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
-5mins? hahaha.... no la... a lifetime..

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- hahaha... invest in it to make it a trillion and give the needy! (:

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- why not? hahaha.... best frens are best fucks... :D

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-loving myself... haha! :D yeah... but i dont...

7. List out 10 favourite things/people that u like/love.
-definaetely not ashraf from CIE, he's an ass... well people love me cause i'm fabulous, pretty and like awesome... actually i dunno la.. hahaha.... do people even like/love me? hahaha...D:

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-unattach them!!! yeah i would! no la...mayb let it be...

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- FYP in TENTAGE

10. What makes you sad?
- hahaha...something ):

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Fucked up... yeap...seriously...

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- no one really....who cares...

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
- my chameleon(FYP)... seriously... its my life in school now... and MM CLUB!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and rich?
- married but with a fucking rich scandal!! :D nah, i rather be rich and single... lol.... cause i can have fun alone! and buy bitches off the street! D:

15. What is your favourite colour?
- fab pink (currently)

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
- i dunno... let things go... and see how it goes...

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- yeah... obviously... bitches are worth forgiving.... D:

18. What do you want to tell the someone you love?
- hotel? yeah! hahaha... cause we're in love, gonna make love... :D

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
- My fab groupmates(entertain them).... i would choose friends.... honestly.. cause frens carry ur balls....lover just sucks them...

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
- nope, haven read that book yet (LOL)

6 ppl who's goin to do tis survey:- Tohlin, Soo Mei, Desiree, Jonko, Fatin, Oliver...

just some ranting....

2008-12-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

well, i'm feeling in the mood for some ranting and well just been adding up alot so yeah... haha... it's not uncummon anyways for people to rant things out, i mean this is a blog...

well lets start with fyp... yeah, SPinnovex 08/09 is coming up! weee~ lots of stress being handle and lots of things to complete.... haha... well the thing that i'mma pissed about is that mayb i didnt get into tentage... welll not actually, i'm just ppissed that we werent treated fair and judgement isnt fair....

for instance, like during our presentation, other groups had like 2-3 people looking but for ours we had only 1, Mr Cheong... and like yeah, he made us skip alot of the entire presentation and i mean whr's the fairness in all that u know... wtf... it aint fair that he judge out group like that... so unfair...

and like the groups that made in i dunno... its so just not fair treatment.... haiz.... oh wells wat to do, just do the best of it.... hahaha... (: and well congratulations! :D

then life is just so unpredictable sometimes... argh...it sucks right now..... damn, i cant help but feel conrolled all my life.... man... one day, u'll know wat i had all this while and i'll make u pay with every last drop of blood in ur body.... i swear to make u see wat i can do.... dont make me snap....

i know smtimes, i'm not the best of persons that mayb because i try to hide who i really am and try to be someone i'm not.... i know its screwing with my head and mentally, wat am i to do? i'm not who i used to be.... i wish things wasnt so bad.... i just wanted to be simple... i guess simplicity has a price to pay.... oh well, i'm willing to do anything for it... oh well, life sucks.... u have to agree with me at some point...

i hope i can be alone.....and cry

SHOP SHOP SHOP! :D

2008-12-16T15:50:00.003+08:00

i want! D:

abercombie madness! omfg i'm like so fabulous.... hehehe!!!! :D

GASP! D: so pretty and blue! D:
hot in this dirty red.. (:

i know it aint pratical but yar! D: LOVE!

OMFG!!!! my favourite....

hahaha... so pretty pants! D:

hahahaha!!! omfg i know i'm hot! meow~!

update and change skin!

2008-12-15T21:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha! hello all!! :D

check it out! i changed my blog skin and have a song that goes with it!!! so cool right, and not to mention cute!!! D: anyways yeah, it was nice and i needa smth fresh and bright so yeah!!! i still love DOMOKUN though! xD

anyways, gonna be a busy busy week with fyp to complete and all so yeah, lots of things to rush! hahaha.... brought some stuff home to pain so yeah, make use of spare time u know wat i'm saying.... so yeah, buys busy...

so yeah shall update soon! :D love all!

La La Lalala... D:

2008-12-14T18:30:00.002+08:00

hello my fellow people... :D i'm back for an update....

so yeah its one of those sundays, when u wake up in the cold weather and feeling damn sick but u just wanna go out cause its a SUNDAY! i know it sounds stupid but yeah, u're refering to ZAID anyways! hahaha!

so yeah, recently have been window shopping for my new year wardrobe... haha... and i have a list of many many thing to get and wear la! ahaha... and one of them, is this black coat from like ZARA!! omg! its so pretty..

so yeah, i went there with amron to like go and check it out! meow! :D

i look so f-ing chic la.... D:

so next time dun be surprised if u see me walking down ard in this... like FABULOUS! hahaha! terrible... but i know its not practical but its still awesome...

man... i needa rest... ciao~!

boredom

2008-12-13T13:22:00.002+08:00

life's a bore.... when i need time u dun have... when u have time, u dunno wat to do... sigh...

2008-12-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

hello mentally ill people of zaid~
before i continue with this post i have smth to say!

ZAID IS IN THE HOUSE!!

WORSHIP ME BITCHES!!

so yeah went out ytd!! whee... and guess wat i saw in da train!!! its all electrical la... cool.... even tells u which door is gonna open! cool right! like the train is so FAB! i like this... but should have a screen of videos too like porn or smth....but more old despo ahpek will take mrt this time... GASP!

cool or wat??
the other half! O_O

so yeah ytd went to MOF~~!!! nice nice place lor.... and pretty me was thr! oh yar, the girl, who always serves me ytd did the weirdest thing.... she asked me for my friendster and number!! D: of course i didnt give and i said next time i come i give her... *gulp* so yeah, i bet if i train her up, she'll turn into a fine bitch!! D:

so here are some photos at MOF! :D

pretty me! *muacks
*look....i'm even studying the menu!!! :D *wow-ing*

so after MOF, went to alexandra point to like walk ard! and see nature!!! cause i'm so nature concious!! hahaha! SAVE ME AND SAVE THE WORLD! D: so yeah enjoy the pretty pictures (and i dun mean the tress xD )nature walk begins! :D ohhh.... cool plant specimen... D:
posing and looking at nature! i like this! many many... gasp! D: nature is so pretty(with me ard of course)

and to end it of.... me looking into thwe night sky.... so pretty... (:

ok update more soon... busy with school and fyp! cya! :D

sick

2008-12-02T19:43:00.000+08:00

i'mma sick.... not in a mood... next time then...

(:

feeling horrible ): i always do

2008-11-28T23:16:00.005+08:00

man... wat a day it has been... well both good and bad... =/

the day started off pretty ok, i woke up late as usual, then got a morning call as usual... :D then like i dunno, i'm like a pretty joker and funny kindaq person so i'm prone to joke here and thr... and yea, thing happen during tt morning call and people attitude change... =/

i dunno, mayb its my fault i dunno, but i think i've been like super simple and giving up alot of thing for this... i dunno mayb its not enough but who am i to judge right? welll, then doing fyp well took my mind of it for awhile... so yeah, i was kinda busy with my fyp so sorry man... then after that fyp thing, i had to rush home and change cause i had this dinner thing to attend la...not forgetting SP STAR... so yeah, left school at 5.15pm and rush alll the way home! *gasp*

so yeah, rushed to bathe and change in like 15mins! insane! so yeah, tried on a few outfits to see how it'll look... and like put my hair nicely... and like chionged out to school! (: and so i msg u cause i thought of u... but yeah, simple thought are so wasted i guess... so yeah, met marcus at spcc and went inside... and like go out after 30mins... SIAN... rush to the busstop and catch a bus to town....

so yeah, i rush and reached on time! :D fabulous! then like have dinner, then like went to gelatissimo! :D got drunk thanks to alfredo! =.= then like went home and like very headache on the bus! i saw this pretty thing on the bus too! damn nice...

now at home... boring and half concious! :D

tell me ur flavour! =D

2008-11-27T19:04:00.004+08:00

OMFG! major fabulous crisis!!! *screams at the top of my voice* HELP!!

I have this list of things I need(not want):

1) Clothes
2) Watch
3) Shoes
4) Laptop
5) iPod Touch Gen.2
6) Nintendo DS Lite

& DUH

7) MONEY!! (To buy all that) ):

SOB SOB! )):

oh where oh where could i ever get such money to get such stuff... ): i neeed a sugar mummy/daddy... which ever comes first, i'll take it! :D but then hor, do i really need them? well the answer is quite obious u know.... DUH!!!!

well if u dun believe it... i'll ask experts on this matter... hmm.... who should i ask.... i know.... who better than the one who started my whole evolution to this bitch i am! :D

PARIS HILTON

omg! she is like godly!! :D omg! see i told u i should! she's like a mum of mine in a way!! LOL :D pretty pretty... c'mon, would a girl as bitchy, sluty, busty and bimbotic lie to me? :D

ROFL! so yeah, u can see more of wat i want to buy coming ur way! :D

I'mma lame! (:

i'm like so fierce

2008-11-25T18:54:00.004+08:00

ok... i was browsing thru the web and i found this! :D it was so pretty so who could resist?? :D move along Paris Hilton and make way for CHRISTIAN V SIRIANO he new hottest (and FIERCE) person in the world....well apart from me definately... duh.. =.=

hahah! rawr! dun make me bite u! *hehehehehe*

FIERCE! RAWR! D:

about today... hmm....oh great...... another day in school... the usuals, fyp and then to club... did like some document signing and then back home... hahaha.... yup... was thinking about lots and lots of things today like how unfair things can be smtimes.... but yeah, life's never a fair place to be let alone to fight for fairness... D:

well dun really feel very good today cause of this headache i'm like having.... ok, mayb more like a migraine(did i spell it correct?) and it's like really irritating... mayb i just need so good resting time! yeah, damn.... i so wanted to go city hall!! GELARE LA!! 50% off u know! RAWR! i'm so fierce! :D

fyp wise everything seems to be going quite ok le... nth much... tmr we will be trying to fix the head of the chameleon to the body... its a plain white head... D: and also fiting it with the cameras so test out the whole system roughtly... and if it works, we can send it for chrome plating! well during fyp u can see lots of different people, people who try to fit in, people who do their hardest work, people who flirt around, people who r obviously kpo and people who just sit on their bums the whole day and do practically NOTHING! :D LOL~

so yeah, i'm suppose to like think of stuff but i'll rest first... damn sick... ): cya lovlies...

ain't i FIERCE? :D

Ans: YES!!! *gasp*

HI!! :D

2008-11-23T14:36:00.004+08:00

hello everybody! hahaha... back for an update! woo~

so yeah, the last post was full of anger and shit so yea, SORRY MISWAN SAZALI! :D so yeah, on friday itself had this MM Day appreciation dinner which was held at staff centre (as always).... so yeah, apparently unlike all the other years, where usually lots and lots of people wanna come cause of the free food, this year, it was quite the opposite as very little people came! D:

even i didnt want to go cause i had plans already (oppps... cause i said i didnt =x).. so yeah, the dinner was pretty sucky and just EDIBLE la.. lol... i mean, u wont eat it but u do cause of survival.. and i hadnt had lunch... wait... I DID! haha... kfc in fact! so yeah, we also played a prank on ever so irritating EEEC blasting music and stuff and so we pasted post it's on their door, end up, they paste it back on ours... =.= so expected can u lamos...

so yeah, i rushed home cause i was LATE! D: then like chionged to airport! woo... was a good trip... had popeye's for dinner...LOL i was famished for some reason but popeye's was farking filling! :D then like walked ard and did some crayon drawings! so fun! like primary school! :D then like i saw the most awkward thing... i took a picture too! D: gasp!

u cant really see it... but there is this red circle there which circles ard "BANGALORE".. haha... which is i dunch know wat country... so i was wondering where it came from... its like so cool it's like a mixture of two words... which is...

"BANGALA-GALORE"

hahaha!! :O gasp! so from that i derived that Bangalore, was a country with galorious bangala! :D haha! i'm so inteletual! :D

ok then on saturday i caught this movie, which was ytd of course....

BODY OF LIES... was kinda a good show just that its kinda very anti-muslim la... so rude... but overall it was worth it, for that 2hours of thirrling adventure and shit... :D and get to see people smashing other people's finger using hammers! D: gross but awesome! :D

ok y'all that's all! :D

FUCKING JERK!

2008-11-20T20:25:00.003+08:00

man... today is like the most insulted day of my life!!! sucks balls.... well i dun wanna say much my angry level is like at optimum bitch fit anger so i dun wanna like be a total bitch and rant about other people u see.... damn this f-tards.... RAWR!!!

i said i wouldnt talk to u for a month and i swear to god i wouldnt.... i keep my word for it.... =.= mayb i'm just being a bitch about like but yeah, somethings we dont joke around honey... but in other news! is saw tis today before "things" happened!!!

OMFG!! :D

elmo is like so f-ing cute la! i'm like so in love with this thing when i laid my eyes on it! :D i love elmo now... mayb i'll stop at toys r' us tmr to get one!!! :D so cuteee~ reminds me of someone!! :D

(: Happy Days

2008-11-18T21:26:00.003+08:00

well today was a good day! :D so yeah, went to school then after that sat down thinking of FYP stuff! played a game of DOTA!!! :D i owned!! woo~! the A-Main objective guy asked us to collect the RoboKit personally and well we NEEDED IT! D:

then like ashraf rushed me to go bugis to collect the robokit cause he borrow his fren's van to drive thr cause he lazy take train! then WY wanted to follow but me chiong-ed and run fast fast so he cannot catch up to us! so yea... we lost sight of him!

so yeah, walked from W11 all the way to T3A!! omg! like half way thru the school can! so far?! then met his fren and took da keys frm him! and we had to search for his freaking van la!! LOL! so yea, looked ard and like found it! then had problem opening it cause ashraf apparently dun know how to use a van's remote! =.=

then after getting on, drove down to bugis! i'm like some street directory la! must be due to the fact i always follow my father ard and see the road he drives thru la! i'm like super memory bitch!! :D then like the van had this speed control thing so everytime u go above 75km/hr it'll go "ting ting ting!!" hahah! annoying! it was doing it that more than half the time, so u know wat that means dont u! :D *hint hint*

so after collecting ashraf said he saw WY behind me but apparently me didnt cross paths! PHEW!!! :D then on the drive back, i open the the kit and to my horror, the instructions were in korean! FTW!?! hahaha!! D: so yeah went back to school, went to sh*t! LOL! i swear thesedays i shit alot in school! i wonder why...hmmm.... so enuff bout that connected the robot! was so freaking fustrated la! i wanted to break it apart i told u!

the ROBOBUILDER- DOGGY :D

the ROBOBUILDER - HUMO

and sorry cheese and anyone i took my anger upon!!! ): sad! so fixed the kit twice and like finally did it right but still didnt work properly!! =.= so yeah, tmr gonna go see the guy again! :D then went to club after all and sign document, visit officers and then go do "FYP"!! hahahaha!!

THREE SIMPLE WORDS

hehehhee...... (:

school is such a bore..!!

2008-11-17T09:49:00.004+08:00

hahaha! i'm back y'all to update! :D

well currently i'm like in school now doing my FYP, well actually i'm doing nothing of that sort right now! LOL.. we're actually doing nth much right now... cheese is watching NBA, Ashraf is like hogging my iPod Touch a usual =.= and guoliang is just well doing nth actually! hahaha! cause well, i'm using his computer to update my blog! :D

haha.. so yeah, we're gonna like do smth later for sure! haha... i didnt get my daily dosage of soya bean this morning but yea i still feel awesome! :D hahaha... well i know why i feel that way but u dont!! hahahaha!!

hmm..well, life's been pretty good recently and i've been a really good boy! well today will be having council meeting and stuff... OH GREAT! hahaha.. well cya soon! :)

LOVE (:

OMG! another one of this thing!

2008-11-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

hahaha... well, i've been tagged by khalis to do this... so here goes..
so here it begins!! rawr!

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.

1)I'm very emo although it seems like i'm an extroverted person
2)I'm like a super nice and sweet fella
3)believe it or not, i WAS a nerd!
4)one of my eyes is small as compared to the other
5)i'm very flexible as compared to other people
6)i have a very stupid universal password!
7)i'm council chairman for SPSU Student Council
8)sugar is a must have else i'd die!
9)actually i have a very good hearing although i blast music like no tmr
10)i have a creative mind! :D

The 10 people ;
1)Shafinaz
2)Ashton
3)Toh Lin
4)Desiree
5)Jonathan Ko
6)Fatin
7)Adilla
8)Miswan
9)Oliver
10)Anyone else...

//

well, today was kinda an ok day... went out to grandparents place and wedding at tampines... oh man, it was kinda like the nicest weedding i see at the void deck la... the setting was like pretty pretty and and awesome la... :D i wanna get married too! so cool la... cant wait if i do!

anyways, i'm in a happy mood and i'll go dota with the gang now.. cya!

OH MAN... presidency sucks... yayness! : D

2008-11-15T21:52:00.003+08:00

so yeah, ytd when out to watch madagascar with my fren after deciding to skip school and take mc! hahahaha... i'm so smart an actor!! :D so yeah, then i watch madagascar at THE CATHAY! hahaha... so yeah, bought the popcorn madagascar combo cause i like to own one of those cute things la.... :D so i did! but waste money!!! $13.80!!! argh! :O but yeah, then went into the movie...

so yeah, then right, got the grand cathay...so big and nice... haha... :D so yeah, during the movie i had to go in and out of the cinema cause people kept calling me regarding the fyp stuff... LOL... like 7 times... so irritating la.... fuck sia!!! so yeah! the movie was fantastic and ok la... :D i love it no matter wat anyone else says! love love love love! weee~

so then after that, was happy the gang msg me to have dinner with them so yeah, i said yes cause my fren had to go anyways... so met the gang at city hall after they decide to have gelare instead... LOL... i wanted to eat but i was full so i didnt eat la... sad... then like after that we all walked back to city hall mrt... so i stopped to a nearby toilet to pee!! so yeah, i went to those urinals but the ones at city hall ar like very the revealing urinals so yea, urgent so just pee lor, scared wat.... so yeah, pee then this bangala came and pee beside me of all urinals... =.= then i peeing halfway i saw him turn and looking at my thang!! yeah, 'my thang'! D: so horrifying... then i zipped and pointed middle finger at him.... free show ah... at least pay ah cb!

so then the baia thing started... only mm club people will be likely to know about this... haha.. : D then went home with reena and the rest took train lor... hahaha... : D

and guess wat, today, or ytd was like parent forum... so had to like erm... go there and like do stuff and parent thing la... so i had to coordinate 2 things... one is the School of MM stuff and the other are coordinate the presidents la... so yeah, came to school at 8 and started to gather all the mm helpers and have a little briefing so that was fine... then give them specific job scopes and other stuff... : D

the worst part is the presidents la... i mean, ok, michelle if u wanna compared with the parent seminar right, first, it wasnt last minute, second we all were given instructions before the event was held a few days back and this one was only like on the day itself? third, why should only acad club president be the ones doing the ushering, NOTE: USHERING?! i mean, i bet lots of other retards like urself could do that do right? i mean, make up ur minds bitches?! like fuck off if u cant fucking do things to save ur freaking life... get it? and oso ah, some president ah, i dunno la, its either they not matured enuff or they just dun care just want to leave and leave and leave la... c'mon la, u come down to help, ur club name le... u dun even farking care about ur club then why be president la? but still i loved the company of felicia and (oh shit i forgot her name)... SOB SOB.. : D

and yeah, some overdued photos! my family pictures! well fake family... :P

me and my daughter! fart! xoxo x)

the whole family, minus alvin chew so irritating la!! D: LOL....

some slut made do this

2008-11-12T17:16:00.002+08:00

laalala... :D

okay,game time. (::

How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
Don't know why- NOrah Jones... i dunno wtf does fatin have to make me do this! D:

Will you get married?
Low-flow rida?! mayb on low budget!! but still most romantic! :D

What is your best friend's theme song?
Skater Boy -Avril lavigne.. HUH?! hahaha... mayb its a skater boy... whee~ :D

What is the story of your life?
Lollipop-Mika... ohh.... so sweet and full of suckin' :D

What was high school like?
All good thing - Nelly furtado hahaha... so many things good things...coming to an end! ): SOB SOB! :D yayness!

How can you get ahead in life?
3am- matchbox 20 whoa so early???! insane.... im still snoring... zzzz...

What's the best thing about your friends?
with love - hillary duff haha! omg my frens are like so lovable and nice :D i love them....except fatin of course...zzz =.= (ii love her best!) :D

What's in store for this weekend?
The way I Are- Timbaland... i dunch know wat the fark this means.... D:

Describe your grandparents.
mercy-duffy!! OMFG!!! hahahaha!! so true... give me mercy from them... :D

How's your life going?
Pac's LIfe -2Pac.... I'm gonna die getting shot by a gun!!! D: ahhhhh!!! the drama! :D so pretty!

What song will they play at your funeral?
Murder on the dance floor- sophie ellis baxter.. omg so i'm gonna get shot on the dance floor... :o omg... mayb its that bastard!! D:

How does the world see you?
I'd love you to want me- LOBO! hahaha... so the world would love me to want them!!! HAHAHAH!!! yayness.. i knew it... no wonder fatin is so all over me.. =x

Will you have a happy life?
Immgrant Song- led zeppelin.. i'm gonna migrate to another country!!! hope somewhere without any sluts like tohlin! :D

Do people secretly lust after you?
Sugar, we're going down- fall out boy... sugar, whoever u are... just come and admit it man... hahaha... i know i'm most wanted :D

How can you make yourself happy?
the take over, the breaks over - fall out boys.. hmm... mayb i have to get into a breakup? wtf? no thanks!?

What should you do with your life?
Karma - alicia keys... OMFG! so true.... karma will get back at me! sad sad sad... so i should look out for my karma and be nice! :D

Will you ever have children?
Mama- MCR... omg... mama? mama pundek!!! mayb from a some old hag mama! :D yay!

What song would you strip to?
Kenangan Terindah - Samsons.. LOL? hahaha... why would i strip to that?

What does your mum think of you?
too little too late- jojo... well mayb i've been a bad boy... so i have to like go and apologise to her today! :D

What is your deep, dark secret?
Chasing Cars - snow patrol... =x omfg! u know my secret!!! D: ahhhhh!!!! i do that in the middle of the night, in my bunny outfit! :D

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Just the girl- the click five... eh? i dunno wat to say ... zzzz =.=

What's your personality like?
Me love - Sean kingston... hahaha... pretty pretty... i love myself many many! :D

What song will be played at your wedding?
I'll stand by you- blondie... OMG! this is so true... sob sob.. ):awww.... i'm so sweet! :D

Tag 5 People:
1) Miswan Sazali :D
2) Shafinaz :O
3) Hui Shan D:
4) Jonathan O_O
5)Desiree :D

:D

2008-11-09T03:11:00.001+08:00

pretty pretty!!

well, today was not a bad day.... actually it was kinda good... haha... :D

wat a day? well who knows right! hahaha!

oh great... how great

2008-11-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

i just realised a bunchie went out and i thot they all went home... and i'm like stuck at home eating bread and cup noodles cause i thot no one wanted to go out... how great right? oh wells... i guess shit happens, oh wait, shit happens everyday...

in other news.... check it out!!!

ROBO LEON!

pretty right? this is my fyp prototype made from clay!! 8kg!!! :D

and me!
and me again...

oh welllsss... :(

the precious lies...

2008-11-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

oh no... in a slip of my tongue, people can just tell smth that they're not supposed to... so why do we all this fault by default? isnt it easier to tell smth that is true and makes sense instead of trying to avoid it or changing how it goes, or even....TELLING A LIE?

i for one am a liar.... i wont deny that, and anyone who denies that they r a liar shuld be shot down in the nuts....why? cause almost everyone who has the ability to talk would have told a lie at least once in their lifetime, so arent we all liars? but how can we define if someone is lying or telling the truth? well, its just simple by seeing people's reaction to certain thing.... i am one with a bored life, so i have observe how people would react when they lie so then i would avoid it all so i can get away with telling a lie... amazing arent i?

but yeah, some may say, oh so zaid's spastic.... well i wouldnt say that i'm not... neither am i 100% spastic.... there are moments in my life that i try to tell the truth but the truth isnt always wat they seem and not very accpeted by many others.... so why u ask me i remain spastic? it is to be who i cannot be..... simple...

so next time, if u wanna lie to me.... think twice...

It's DEEPAVALI!! :D

2008-10-27T19:49:00.001+08:00

Happy Deepavalli y'all!!

hope everythings fine... i just hope... (: will update soon i guess... :O

Sunday Blew away..

2008-10-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

well today is sunday! hahaha... wat a day right? it wasnt that bad... went out with victor, debao, josh and zhihe... victor was on a spree... he wanted to get levi's jeans and gucci wallet or hugo boss wallet and a belt... so yeah... we were at taka first...

so levis had this thing.... u bring any old branded or brandless jeans and u get $50 off any other jeans from levi's! hahaha... wicked right? but yeah, levi's aint my thang... so yeah, joshua also wanted to get a pair, but the taka outlet was damn small and congested so i said go to the heeren one instead ba... so then we walked opposite to lucky plaza and down to PARAGON!

haha... so yeah, we went straight to gucci... as always the guys at gucci were so weird when handling with customers especially the malay ones.. like totally ewwish... haha... so victor asked for the wallet he wanted... looked nice but looks like any old fake gucci wallet u can find at anywhere... so i was very against it although it was nice... and it cost just a mere $430 la... kinda good also ma... (: but he didnt feel like getting it at the moment...

so off to heeren we went!! so yeah... headed for levi's straight.... victor and debao went to fossil and got a belt, just a plain belt at $60... insane can? LOL... hahaha... well explains me sometimes... so yeah, i was like some expert fashionista, WELL I AM LOR, helping josh to select his type of jeans... he like sooooo doesnt suit a black or washed black jeans but he keep on insisting on it... well so i just let him try and got him to try my choice, this dark blue washed pair of jeans... and in the end he agreed that the blue one was way way way nicer!! hahaha... and yeah, thanks to me....

and the weirdest thing is like, i was browsing the jeans with josh right and this guy came to me and ask for this specific jeans and asked me wat was good for him... i was like, "i dun work here dude" and he was....well lets just say no longer vibrant? HAHAH! mayb cause i was telling josh to check the jeans label numbers like so worker and i did dress a lil like them... horrible... hahaha... but funny...

then we went to cyberdome cause i gave victor the sad sad face cause i didnt wanna watch movie la! hahahah! and then after that went back home! wee~

anyways thats all!! :D

and btw:~

HAPPY DEEPAVALI PEOPLE! :D

horrible

2008-10-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

i feel horrible...

thats just it... i dun know why i am....

=/

hahaha...

2008-10-25T21:32:00.003+08:00

well my saturday was a boring one and my saturday plans were changed due to some reason... oh wells, it happens i guess, i always say.... hahaha... so yeah... wat to do... sigh...

went out with jonathan to get his skinnies at pennisular and the thai person or of wat natinality was given weird language signals... hahaha... and as usual, jonathan being himself, made fun of their slang and ascent... hahaha.. :D cracked a laugh although i had ulcers... ):

then like he needed his facial wash so went to guardian at like the city link mall thr lor... nearest! then like he was practially seeing every single bitch product there was.. :O hahaha... oh then i saw this pokka collagen water.... so i was like, wth, give it a go! omg!!! worst choice ever! it smelted like pee but worst and it tasted like omgnesss(no words can describe it)... but its collagen water so yeah, bad tasting stuff r good! cause good tasting stuff r usually bad for our health... ): BABIS!

then after that he went home and i went down town till like about 7plus... so went home and then i was so freaking bored i started thinking of things to cook! :D wth right... and i whipped up like 5 things! chicken rice, prawn rolls, chicken chunk soup, potato soup, roasted honey chciken! LIKE WOW!! and now i'm eating them one by one slowly.. :D wait i have a foto!!!

hahaha... i just realised i didnt take a foto of the chicken.... ): hahaha... sad... but it was nice lor!! so now i'm still eating... sad... toodles! ((:

Emo-ing

2008-10-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

first and foremost.....

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MACHIA-TOHLIN! :D

and then i wanna say right that hello, this is like a blog so my english doesnt have to be like PERFECT cause well its all rants and stuff so shove it... :D

well, today was like one of those days where u just wanted to stay home and emo and rest but yeah there were stuff at home that didnt allow me to do tt and besides i promised aisyah i'd go her place at sengkang for her open house thing... so sadly like no one from mm club wanted to accompany me to go, i felt damn sad la can? i mean like yea.... just sad and dissappointed man... i mean like yeah... it's just ....*sob*

so i called around and found out some other club people going so i joined to meet them... so went out of my house like about 1pm plus... suppose to reach sengkang at like 2pm but i reached like 2.15pm... so like we follow the instucted directions given by aisyah and we found her block!! omg! and guess wat, met amron and like 20 of his club people going at the same time... so yeah... then went to like raya together together...

aisyah home is very plesant and nice and the parent were friendly people la... had SOME (really some is some).... then like chated for abit and left for town.... left the house bout 3.40pm... then like took the train all the way to dhoby ghaut... and people were staring at me like throughout la... anonying... mayb i looked weird... hmmm...

well today suppose to like be the day to celebrate tohlin's b'dae at sweensen but then i was feeling kinda sad and low recently (really low like way way low)... so i just went to some place to sit down and rot for awhile... rot till bout 630.. then fatin started to find me... so well since it was tohlin's b'dae i just went to go find them la.... but i was very mono and emo-ish so forgive me people (i still am although i mayb have been lauging for the last few hours... i'm just a spastic kid)...

they had sweensens and well i was in no mood to eat... little chatter here and there.... tohlin cake comes, she cuts it... didnt bother eating again like seriously lost of appitite due to recent things... so des gives her the present.... she opens present! hahaha... *poof* lingerie!!! woo~ i think she likes it! :D it's purple wth cute little patterns from LA SENZA! :D

anyways, yeah after tt slack a lil then reeve, tohlin&eugene went to place bets on racing and soccer... insane... tohlin makes it a point to bet every single birthday... and fatin had to leave...sad.. ): after tt went to arcade and well play some dumb dumb games.... i didnt bother playing cause i was still emo and feeling retarded... but the silent hill game looked freaky and cool! :D i'll try next time....

then after arcading they decided to hang around... initially wanted to like go starbucks to sit and 'drink kopi' but chong lee wanted to go rocher towhuey instead and so went to the busstop waited for bus and like talked bout *stuff* only me and denan shall know... and even on the bus.... tohlin was getting all ready to be all horny as she gave eugene the "FUCK ME" look! and after that she said it herself! the whole sentence!! :D i'm so good...

so then went to eat towhuey and stuff.... how the aunty who took our order was super, she can be like a rapper! and she's got super memory too! anyways, she likes playing with her dentures though... ewwww... so had some of the things there still we all were sick and full of it.... x_x so decided to leave for home... and well took a bus and here i am! :D

in other news....

i'm starting to be bulimic and aneroxic from today onwards... it helps me feel better about my problems... like getting ride of my feelings..

well, anyways, day was ok but yea... life's gonna stay like this... tyme for the game play... cya!

and happy birthday to tohlin again! :D

dissapoinment kills one's self

2008-10-18T00:52:00.002+08:00

this is like my mood for the coming week and hopefully for as long:-

EMO*period*

well back for another update....

well where do i begin, well, i'm sorta dissapointed with myself at this point of life... i mean i set things in life for myself to happen in my life and i just keep dissapointing other and not to mention myself of the expectations i have... mayb it's just me, mayb i'm not supposed to be even here right now.... all the 'wat if's' and the 'how now' coming my way and everything doesnt really make any sense to me... i'm willing to do alomost anything to make things happen and become better but i dunno... mayb i have failed as a person in this life of mine...

i'm not anyone if i dun feel whole... wat is someone if he feel empty, with no purpose, no meaning and no reason.... i dunno anymore... i'm trying to make the best of things but it never works out.. i'm just utterly dissapointed in everything about me... so wat! yeah... sigh...

i just wanna freaking cry and ask someone to stab me from the back and u don't have to show me your face and i wouldnt hate u for doing it, u're gonna do me the biggest favour ever... but please stab it right at the heart... cause when i die i wanna feel the pain of losing the one thing u have, your own heart... so anyone who wants to have the feel, be my guest.. (:

i dun need anyone to cheer me up and tell me that its normal... cause i know wats normal and not... i havent been blind for 8 years people.. __

something nice to look at:-

we rock! (:

wonderful birthday!

2008-10-15T22:41:00.004+08:00

oh well, ytd was like my 19th birthday and boy wat a day it was... so like i said in the previous post... i went to school settled the club furniture and then like go back to the fyp place and continued... tjhen at 12 went for mm day meeting and then at 1pm left for bugis to meet with the robotics guy to ask stuff regarding the fyp were we working on (robo-leon).....

the place was like damn horrible and ulu but the shop had like awesome and amazing stuff i tell u like really awesome! then the people there were, me, cheese balls, guo liang, desiree, alwyn, wai yeh, soo mei!! then we started taking photos of the robots and playing with all the controls damn cute and funny!! :D

then after that we splited... me, cheeseballs and guoliang went to bugis street (omg! like i know totally cheap and unglam! but yeah it was plain research...I SWEAR)... wanted to find this thing that when u hit on ur hand then it curls up and damn cool.... searched then found it in the form of a watch!! so cute.... then i accidentally dropped it and it broke! *priang* ahhh!! so i just paid for it, only $5 la so nvrmind.... and then cheeseballs was like, i feel like getting a watch... i was like ewww.... !!so unglam... i mean he could have done it when were I wasnt there and not on my birthday too la....pls... so we went to bugis junction instead... yayness....

then walked around and walked.... i wanted to get a new watch but then the watch that i wanted wasnt in being sold!!!! BIATCH! so yeah when to DC Heroes instead and saw this like awesome batman shirt!!! :D

it was black with a red batman logo!! semi shiny too!!! wa!! and i was like so like in love with it! so in the end finally bought it! then had a little something to eat at the soup spoon well it wasnt very little! omg, soup spoon was like big bowls of soup!!! hahaha.... BIG BIG BIG! and i nearly vomited eating all that soup! sucks balls! :D

then after that cheese balls and guoliang left for home and i left for city hall!! (: then at city hall i like totally wen to city link and like walk like around! omg! i haven been there for 2 days! =x ROFL! so yeah walked around while waiting.... i was in a very very happy mood la!! ((((:

then after that there was this lady asked for donations so i wanted to like ehlp but i only had big change! so sad... but the lady said she had change but then found out she had alot of $2!! AHHHH!! so i went to guardian and change la... so sad the guy didnt want to help me change at first! but the guy was sweet enuff to help me change cause mayb because i smiled and did the really sad and pathetic face.... ): (ROFL!!) i'm so awesome! so he change and i acted so ridiculous! LOL... so yeah, went back to the lady and she was so happy! ((: i made her happy i think... LOL...

and then...then... then... someone called me! lol!! and you called when u were directly infront of me can! lol... then we went to like MOF! oh man! i haven had it since like 2 month or something... and i was so happy so i ordered my favourites!! :D and i still can't believe u paid for it la!! but it was really really nice...

and then we went walking around our usually places and walk and walk! yeah, then went to the turning turning turning machine to get that gatsby thing but it was no longer available... sad right? but nvrmind! haha it was just nice being around... so yeah... then walked around and the day ended off pretty nice and smooth... LOL! hahaha..

and then went home and like sleep! birthday over!! :D

Happy Birthday Me!! =)

2008-10-14T08:05:00.002+08:00

well well guess wat i'm finally like 19 or nineTEEN and next year i'll be like 20 or twenty... so yeah, this is like my finally year as like a young and youthful teen before i turn into one of those OLDER people... SOB! ): the countdown is on 365 more days to go!! ahhhhh!! i'll be as old as fengyuan OMFG!

so this is how i planned to spend my day today! actually, i planned to take the day off from school and relax at home and slack... but so many many things have to be done so well, my plans were changed...

from 8am-10am, i will be in IPC lab to do my fyp and at the same time, i'll be on standby from 10am-12pm for the arrival of club's new furnitures! hahaha! then after 12 onwards, i shall make my way to MM Office for the combine lecturers meeting for MM Day... after MM Day meeting which is like 1pm, i'll be heading bugis area to source out and consult professionals regarding my fyp project la... then till about 3plus i guess... then i'm going out!! gonna like have some food at MOF (haven't been there in like FOREVER!!!)... YAYNESS! then gonna like walk around and mayb get me smth nice for myself... double yayness!! ((: then i dunno.. =x

well yeah.. thats like a typical normal birthday! and my current mood now is like ((((((:

oh yar i'm just gonna say thanks to:

my awesome sister who called me like in the wee~ hours right after her surgery just to wish me!! =D
my brother too! :D

and then....

tohlin.desiree.fatin.ashton.eugene.huishan.vina.eddy.yi shan.victor.shafinaz.feng yuan.abu.nabel.kian tat.jonathan.freddy.kak linda.jerome.denan.oliver.wai yeh.donavan.irwin.farhan(mm).miswan.farhan.bryan.brian.alvin.

and also....

a few random numbers which i havent yet to trace cause my phone spoil and i lost the contacts! ):

anyways, been kinda a weird collections of mood recently so i hope things will be better! :D

update on wat really happen later! so cya!! (:

life strikes back! tadaa

2008-10-12T20:06:00.002+08:00

oh wells, i seem to see piles of dust accumilating on my bloggie so i better update before it becomes a prehistoric site! *gasp* :O

oh wells holidays come to an end today as we all start school tmr and the great battle for the last league continues!!! ahhhhhh! it's been the most horrifying week of my entire life and not to mention the most saddest point of my life.... i've counted again! within the last 9days, i have cried to myself 28 times in total... how pathetic and sad that is... that was how sad this entire past 9 days were for me.... but yeah, no one really knew until mayb now when they read this... sigh... all i ever wanted was to be like a good person and happy... karma is so out to haunt and get me i swear....

and so it was social chalet and it was kinda ok la.... i could say it was fun and intersting and nice to see old faces and getting together again!! wee~ :) and i was kinda lil happy for god knows why... hee.. even though i was not the best behaved... :P

so yeah... life's great! :D

school opens tmr and i hope things goes nice!

2008-10-02T10:35:00.003+08:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your
blog
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Starting time: 10.37am
Name: Mohamed Zaid Bin Zainuddin
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 10/11
Height: 177cm.
Where do you live: Clementi (NO STALKING!)
Favourite drinks: Ice Lemon Tea!!! <3
Favourite breakfast: Anything Mcdonalds has in the breakfast menu! And the normal indian stuff, prata etc.

Have you ever

Been on a plane: Yeap
Swam in the ocean: Yeap
Fallen asleep at school: ALOT!
Broken someone's heart: I think so... sigh...
Fell off your chair: EH! ALOT! damn pain!
Waited for someone to call: YEAP YEAP!
Saved emails: Who doesnt?
What is your room like: 1 word... BORING
What's right beside you: My WET towel.... i just like finish bathing....
What is the last thing you ate: Hari Raya stuff! OMG so full of coconut milk and all that oil! x)

Ever had

Chicken pox: Yeah
Sore throat: Alot.... i wonder why..
Stitches: My chin!! ):
Broken nose: NEVER! NIGHTMARE!!

Do you

Believe in love at first sight: Nope...mayb a little
Like picnics: Ewwww.... dine in!

Who was/were the last person

You danced with: I can't dance... :(
Last made you smile: Hmmmm...
You last yelled at: My FATHER!

Today did you

Talk to someone you like: OMG! YES! :D
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: I'm Healthy lor
Talk to an ex: Nope
Miss someone: Yeap, i do... alot....
Eat: Nope... later ba..
Best feeling in the world: Being happy!
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Sometimes?? =x
What's under your bed: Dust *poof*
Who do you really hate: NO ONE... literally
What time is it now: 10.45am

Random

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yes pls!
Do you have any siblings: Yar.. =.=
Do you want children: Yeah! i love children! *not a phedo*
Do you smile often: Depends...
Do you like your hand-writing: YES!
Are your toe nails painted: WTF? NO!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: -secret-
What color shirt are you wearing now: topless (told u i just bathed!)
What were you doing at 7.00 p.m. yesterday: DINNER!
When did you cry last: Yesterday..sob
Are you a friendly person: Depends...
Do you have any pets? Nope... i do want a puppy! (not the tohlin kind la)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: At home.
Did you hold hands with the person who mean anything to you now: i can't rmber... :P
Do you sleep with the TV on: NEVER! how could u!
What are you doing right now: Listening to Disturbia
Have you ever crawled through a window: Yes, locked inside my house with no key...
Can you handle the truth: Not Really..
Are you too forgiving: YES! *noods head frantically*
Are you closer to your mother or father? Mum!
Who was the last person you cried in front of: i can't rmber... dun like crying in front of ppl.
How many people can you say you've really loved: 2
Do you eat healthy: NOPe! :D
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: nope
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: yeah, countless...
IF you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: :P
Are you confident: YES!

5 things I was doing 10 years ago

1. I was in primary 3 (copy denan)
2. trying not to be a blob...
3. trying to invent something with newspaper (wtf right?)
4. staying at home after school like some noob
5. eatching POWER RANGERS!!

5 things on my to-do list today

1. Go out
2. Buy my contact lenses
3. Try to get a haircut
4. meet some BIATCH
5. look for phones!

5 snacks I enjoy

1. popato chips
2. tea fingers
3. prawn crackers
4. Maggi mee
5. PEPEK!

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire

1. donate millions to welfare associations
2. buy me that stuppid vertu phone.
3. Spend like alot in paragon!
4. fly overseas! all the places!
5. Build a super house! like a mansion!

5 of my bad points

1. too glam
2. think alot le
3. whorish
4. kinda harsh with words
5. sensitive only..

5 people I tag

1. Shafinaz
2. Khalis Khan
3. Reeve
4. TohLin
5. BITCHES OUT THERE!

2008-10-01T18:34:00.002+08:00

!!!!!~SELAMAT HARI RAYA~!!!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

it's that time of year again where people seek forgiveness (including me of course...DAMN! x))and well collection of GREEN packets by people! YAYNESS!! hahahaha... well fasting session is over and well its time to turn back to the ways of people just like i was before fasting started!!!! so yeah, be ready cause there will be painful words and suffering! x)

WHEEEEE~~~~

will update the photos and stuff soon! weee~~ :D

Hari Raya is CUM-ING! OMFG! YAYNESS!

2008-09-29T19:28:00.003+08:00

well well well.... in like 2 days time it's gonna be Hari Raya!! do u like literally know wat that means? it means i dun have to wake up every morning at 5am to have my pre-dawn food and i dun have to worry wat time it is cause i can eat ANYTIME!! hahahahah!!

well, the best part isnt bout eating, god no! it's about the green packets we get! yay! and i'm like hoping for a few or alot... well who knows!! weee~~

and like about an hours time, i'll be going back to my Johor house to prepare for tmr and all so yeah, don't miss me people! :D

DOMOKUN IS SO F-ING CUTE!

F1 Insane!! :D :D

2008-09-29T11:13:00.007+08:00

OMGOMGOMG! so yea, ytd were the Formula 1 finals at the singapore street! so yea, this race is kinda special cause its the first ever night race!! so yeah, i went with fatin!! LOL! so then like i met her at city hall... so we went to like walk all around the damn freaking hot and horrible place! and then she was like, "F1 drivers lose at least 3kg racing, and right now i think i'm doing that now...." cause it was really damn hot and tiring and we were freaking FASTING!! :P

so yeah, then we went around looking for our SP friends who were doing duty... hahahha... they were shock as hell... heheh! so yeah, found out eugene and chee heng quit working so they were just slacking and sitting around watching the F1 thing! LOL... so they tagged along with us... hahaha... OMG! i swear to god that the entire population of Singapore was at CITY HALL!! :O

it was damn packed and stuff... LOL... but yeah, it was a good experience and good for the ears too!! :D i managed to take several lame photos! LOL... so photo time! :D

me and FART! x)

as u can see thats the road thing they drive around in... oh wait, thats the TRACK!!
ok! if u see closely, u can see this like thing dashing thru! thats actually MASSA's CAR!!! LOL... but it was too fast for my noob camera! LOL...

and yeah, this was how the entire circuit looked like.... not bad la but yeah... wat can u expect from singapore?
eugene and chee heng.... damn funny!

ooh yar... this is who we got thru! LOL... don't ask... :P

so yeah, then we went around to watch on the big screen and stuff... hahaha... and finally the underdog guy won, some renault driver... lol... from italia i believe... and yeah after the whole race, THE WHOLE SINGAPORE population like CHIONGED to the MRT etc...

hahaha... damn packed la! and we and fatin were trying to go and find the rest of the people... x) Fatin ended up buying this big red ferrari flag~! damn nice but it was $70 but yeah, she's a fan! who could blame bitches like her... LOL...

so yeah while waiting me and fatin camwhored ALOT! LOL! then yeah, i had this mat hair going on so we were like doing mat and mina posses! LOL..

pouts* ROFL pouts* AGAIN! damn MAT!

omg! this one so OMFG!
wheee~~~!
i was like possed by the demon! rofl..
muacks! the hell la...
kinda disturbing but funny!

lol! told u it was alot!
again! :P

finally!! hahaha...

just FYI, there's nth between us if u think otherwise... hahaha... we're just great frens! :D

so thats all!! cya!! :D

Disturbia

2008-09-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

harlow! i'm just feeling really bad now, every single body part is screaming out for help.... so yeah... dun bother me for abit.... (:

LTC Ipoh A Trip!

2008-09-26T20:42:00.006+08:00

wee~ oh yes.... i'm back from LTC Ipoh trip like 2 days back and like it was like the best best ever thing that i had this year!! it was freaking fun and funny and not to mention alll the crazy things we have been doing during the trip.... :D
so yeah, me and a few others meet up at dover like early in the morning to catch a train to the meeting point which was like at farrer park there la.... tsk tsk... so yeah, from there we like took a freaqking bus ride which was like 7-8hours long!! hahaahha... in the bus like everyone was still kinda strangers so yeah it was kinda a quiet ride but we had a bit of laughter during the introduction part.... everyone was like i'mma nice person... ROFL!!!

so yeah... when we finally reach our destination we had to like take a lorry further inside to the place la.... so damn cool... now is photo time!!!

hahahah! our first group photo!! with the pretty miss angelvin! hahaha! :D
me!!! camwhoring as usual... i so love my job!
another camwhoring with the funny and quiet daniel! haha.. XD
the feets of the group people.... omg.... mine's like so prettty compared to the rest!! :Dand that is alex.... he's like so freggin shy la... until like last 2 days then he like very funny and all... LOL... BARBARIANS!
and yes, the girls of the group also known as the barbarians of the entire camp... omg... scary!!! ): AHHHHHHH!!! :Oon board the lorry!!! we're like the sheeps u know going to be sold off or smth... hehe..

oh this is like a better view, u know why? cause u can see me in this one.... hahahaha.. :D the lorry ride was like a roller coaster but wat coller and like damn damn damn fun!!!! :D a must try during the ipoh trip!!!

and the very pretty and lovely ms angelvin! :D and that was our destination... My Gopeng Resort (so not resort like la.. ewww)and yes! when the lorry ride was finally over we all dropped off and like looked at our new surrounddings! hahaha... yi shan looks extremely happy in this one!! freakking barbarians!! :D

so like let me introduce u to my groupie!!! the ICE KACANG-ERS... like yeah, one guy was damn annoying until i cant rmber huis freaking name, and even if i did (his name is sean... EWWISH), i dun even wanna like talk about him.... the rest were like lurrve... <3

and this is like a little joke bout the toilets!! hahaha....

like OMFG!! ahahahahaha!! so adorable right? NOT!!! ewwww......

and to end this post i will post the picture of the 6 BARBARIANS!!! AHHHH!!!! Crazy yet funny and fun poeple... i miss all of them except tt MOTHER FUCKING RETARD OMFG!!! :@

well this is not the end of the ltc trip.... this is just day one... will update more in the time to come so dun worry! cya!! :D

i'm just doomed to have a sad life...

2008-09-19T13:27:00.002+08:00

well, i dunno... lately things have been happening and for god knows wat reason.... i mean, my vision for club for AY 08/09 was like inspiring and making everyone being a part of the club... but with so many many problems cropping up internally chasing everyone one by one and now its like the most major of all major things to happen, i doubt i can even have a peaceful year...

i mean, if u join a certain thing know the consequences of wats gonna happen, u should know how to adapt and make things the best as the are... but some people are just too blind or blinded by the way they were raised by their parents or their environments... i mean, u can go holidaying, crusing, go birthdays with ur frens go out.... but when u come to doing ur work, u always say that u have no time... i mean is that freaking just retarded? and everytime we say smth u dun even treat us as ur frens and etc... i dun even know wat u treat us like... are we like dispossable at ur cause? i mean, come to think of it, its how u've always treat us...

only there when u want to.... who in the friggin world still does that? u gotta learn.... i dunno how u're gonna be when u grow up.... oh wait, will u even grow up? always trapped in your own dilusion and stuff.... its down right sad....

and now we have to clear up ur mess, the shit u left behind.... wat a piece of crap.... this is so depressing....

well, in other news, i'm still alive! wee~ hahahaha.... and well at elast i still have the support of great people.... :D

Poof! Poof! Where cha go?

2008-09-07T02:26:00.002+08:00

well, update update! well, it's sunday morning.... nothing much, my weekends have just pass by like in the snap of my fingertips... well, i dunno, every time i wwake up in the weekend with a positive outlook, it just ends up turning the other waqy around... bah! and when i'm like not so positive the people around me are all so positive and i have to like adapt myself to fit into it... ahhh... wat a brain sore.... and well, todays like the most retarded day of my life i think.... i wont say why but i just feel that way for more reasons than one...

and i tell you, my eyes are like so red and my brain is like begging me like take a rest but i dun give a shit.... cause well, life's so boring anyways.... and like i wanna like have some conversation with someone but yeah, like everyone i want to talk to is either busy or well doing their own stuff, i dun blame them though... well at least the weekends will be ending soon and the all so boring holiday but not holiday weekdays are coming...

and to top it off... i feel so excited! yay! can u see me expressing how much fun i'll be having? yay.... ROFL... well, i'll update more to come... i'm like going into hibernation soon!

wat to update todae? hmm...

2008-09-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

well, back to a more NORMAL update... well, school's out and holidays are here (even though i like return back to school like almost everyday!).. hahaha... exams are finally over! YAY!! can't say that i'm very happy that its over, but lets just say i'm happy i wont be seeing it anymore!! hahaha...

well, lately i was thinking of getting a part-time job to sustain my high maintenance self and other dailt activities in my life... but i realised with so little time left of my holidays, wat freaking place would wanna hire me? so i guess, getting a job is out of the qns now... so all i do now is a attend my school programme or just well find people to hang around with which so far i have done cause i've been back to school everyday!! OMG! hahaha...

also its the fastin month now so yay! cause well it's a good thing i think.. hahaha... well, thats what my dad says.. goodie goodie... :D well, life's been ok i guess... been ups and downs and well sometimes i get into little confusions and smtimes i just go balistic and go insane but i'm working on it.... LOL... =/

and to those who r having their itp now! jiayou!! it's gonna be fun esp when it reachest the end!!! HAHAHAAHHA! :D

ok! thats all!

this is the end i think

2008-08-31T09:42:00.002+08:00

i'm having a breakdown now... and this is major... i dunch know how long more i can put things together before i explode... it's gonna be terrible and i know it's not over... if only FUCKING PEOPLE could do wat they do best... FUCK OFF!

me ranting again... whats new...

2008-08-28T23:52:00.003+08:00

after much thinking, i realised i have so much more to do then just study for my test tmr... i have like my meeting tmr as well, which is gonna be complete chaos cause some people have been having the time of their lifes when i'm always worrying on wat to do next... it's so not fair... i want a normal life sometimes too, i wanna like have time! which i dont... my 45 days of holidays are only left with 16 with nth on then... i feel so pathetic... and wats more i have to give up more days of that 16 for my FYP... which is like ridiculous! why not just cancel the damn holidays!?

and right now i'm buring up a fever and flu... and i have a paper in about 9 hours... i guessed i'm just damned or mayb its karma for me doing bad things.... i dunno... i believe things happen for a reason, i just dunno wat that is right now... =/

mayb some peple would say hey zaid, u're life isnt that bad... but yeah, u wont know right? so dun tell me to shutup with my complaining, i want to complain i shall complain! whee~! :D

so i think i'll head to bed... night... sigh..

LAZY BUMs

2008-08-28T22:23:00.001+08:00

man... i've been freaking busy with the freaking exams with 5 freaking papers which i dun freaking know if i can freaking do freaking well in.... which also reminds me i'm like freaing tired of breathing... it's so muhc hard work... i just wanna like lie in my on dreams... ahhh.... (smiles)

well, i'm not really updating, just wanted to drop and see if my blog's dead... apparently IT IS! =D

and so am i if i dun continue studying...

cya!

HAHA!

2008-08-13T20:01:00.001+08:00

i'll look thru photos, i saw this! i laughed...

haha! enjoy! ok i guess not..

thoughts and rants..

2008-08-12T18:37:00.002+08:00

well, despite recent tiring events such as MUG @ Morbely, Tons of Laps at the school pool, not even getting proper rest(ok.. i shouldn't complain...someone i know has lesser la!), gyming, running... i haven't given my body enough rest over the past few month since school has started and well i wouldn't wanna be bragging, but yeah, i have been pushing my limits in life...

and right now, i'm like at the point where i wanna like just drop everything and run away... away from school, away from home and mayb live by the seaside where i can like recover and be surroundded by the greatness earth has to offer... and yes, i'm gicing up, mayb not because i cant do it, but i just dont wanna do this anymore, i'm just getting too much that i asked for and i'm just in need of a little time and space for myself u know? like to do the things that make me feel me and make me go like WHOA~!

and now, my i'm like being told that i'm not good enough for this and for that... and that i'mma dumb and well, it's not helping me la mum.... u gotta know how to like praise ur words u know, i'm just in a state where anything little just makes a whole lot of difference and makes it so much easier for me... and i dun know wat to think sometimes... i dun know wat people want me to think ALL the time...

lately things are going quite ok, and i wanna tell someone things but yeah, i guess it's not the time yet... and if u might happen to just look thru this, i wanna say that well... i do care, and well, i wanna make u happy everyday.. and of course if u saw this u'd be going "...... eh..... ok..." but.. well i guess that's life aint it... haha..

well, i wanna go and mayb find peace... wish me luck...

days of our lives

2008-08-12T11:52:00.000+08:00

MAMAK! LOL! i'm tired...but i just wanted to...i'm tired...

i still am...

2008-08-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

QUESTION: 1)Is this a heart shaped cookie?

2)Is this a heart shaped cookie with two nipples?

answer on my tagboard please? hahah... i need to do a poll! (:

DURIANS!!! :D

2008-08-10T00:23:00.003+08:00

well, we decide to go to the streets of geylang to had durian on the national day! and thanks adelin for being late so u gave us a treat!!! wee~!

THE DURIAN CRAZY PEOPLES!!!

Adelin (Gorilla) , Kian Tat (Pantat), Zaid (eewww..).. everyone looks damn happy except for me... i look freaking tired la...

kian tat and adelin... hahha... the durian was awesome!
thats's how much we ate... ROFL...
who agrees adelin looks like an auntie? ROFL
not forgetting the coconut drinks we had.... (: *yum*
and zaid gives it a thumbs up... lol... I LOOK MENTALLY RETARDED!!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! x_x

2008-08-09T23:00:00.004+08:00

MARI KITA RAKYAT SINGAPURA SAMA-SAMA MENUJU BAHAGIA, CITA-CITA KITA YANG MULIA, BERJAYA SINGAPURA...... u know the drill.... well today, our nation celebrates it 43rd Birthday! well, i actually forgotten bout it until like 10am when someone msged me, 'Happy National Day!' and i was like OH YAR!!

well, thats our flag...

so yeah, today wanted to go out to study initially but ended up going out with kian tat to town to like walk around and just unwind... hahaha... had lots of funny funny jokes and well, WHEREEVER we went, there were tons of crazy, CRAZY singaporeans walking around and just being nuts... haahah! it was realli super duper crowded everywhere (in town)... hahaha.. but yeah, it's just another typical national day i guess... =/

and here are some photos from the Katrina Farewell Dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market Plaza Singapura..

soo huey with wen shen ...
joni and katrina
katrina, jie tao and joni.. (:
hot stuff joni... :D
joshua, joni and wen shen... *escorts*

whoa... glamorous kartina.. ;)
wen shen, joni, shee huey and ru ting...
kartina and wen shen...
OCM and me!!! :D
ewww... wannabe OCM!

well it was a fun and eventful thing... had fun and had good food! LOLs...

TRALALALALALA...

2008-08-08T23:26:00.001+08:00

well, today was a day where things happened... but they weren't bad... in fact they were quite the opposite.. (:

yeap, at least smth was worth it all... (:

NYAHAHAHAH! :D

2008-08-05T15:02:00.001+08:00

i'm in school, club with farhan... hahaha... i'mma like supposed to be studying for statistics today but yeah, i've studied enuff... hahahaha... so yeah just pratically slacking and blogging... i have nothing much to blog about anyways... so yeah... i'm off... LURVVE you all... (:

SATURDAY IS HERE!!

2008-08-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

well ytd, had two bbq, denan's bbq and also council bbq! was pretty fun! hahaha... well lost money at both bbq! damn sad la... everytime i am onli to lose... == well, been a hell of a bbq and i'm blardy tired...

so this is all i'mma updating fer now... till later.. (:

B-O-r-i-n-g thursday!

2008-07-31T18:28:00.002+08:00

well, back again for yet another post! well, it's thursday and pretty boring! boring to the level where wanking/jerking/masturbating ur time away is like even not gonna get rid of that boredom (doesn't mean that i've done it)... LOL! but yeah, seriously damn boring la now...

anyways, nth much happened today and eveything seem to be moving slowly but at times it just zooms past u! hahaha... i wish people would tell me wat they expect of me so at least i know u know? ok that was just blardy random! hahha...

well at least tmr is a day to look forward to! got council bbq to prepare and have! hahahah... ((:

till tmr then! shall update the pictures tooo!!! ((:

this is wat happens when u're bored!

2008-07-29T12:57:00.004+08:00

i'm back again for yet another post! hahaha.... actually i just came back from school after like thermodynamics which was definately a super killer! i tell u it's like cool at the same time confusing cause like i heard some stuff from somewhr before but i cant rmber whr! =x and during the whole lesson i was talking to my fren bout shiting/berak-ing cause i was having a stomachache... ): and there was like weird weird things like if i dun shit in time my ass will be dieseased! hahahah... how cool is that.. x_x hahaha... so yeah... so went home and just like on the com and decided to blog! wee~!

so yeah, ytd my mum gave me a comment, "zaid! u're cupboard cannot close already! ur clothes are too many and i think u need to throw away some!!" and i was like, "err....if i throw away some, does that mean i get to buy newer ones? hehe" and my mum just laughed, "hahaha... ur cupboard will explode!" and went inside the room! i bet she was thinking, "i should have never given him that idea, and now it'll be even worst!" LOL... and i was there thinking, "hmm.... so wat shuld i buy next!! :D" hahaha... so happy... i cant even out talk my mum... yay! so yea, i dun think i wanna buy anymore clothes cause well everytime i buy smth, i want something else... so yeah, wait till i can find the best! i'm like so intelligent *cough cough* (my conscious)...

oh yar! i got a new crumpler addition to my crumpler collection!! hahaha... so that makes it number 4! weee~! it's a smaller one lar, just a crumpler bundle!! i show u picture wait arh! nice lar, black summore!

so pretty huh? ((:

and i'm also planning to buy this Sennheiser Headphone! hahaha... lloks like a green snake but the shape like so sexy can!! hhahaha... but the price is $103.99!! so probably get it like september la.. hahaha!! (: (dun say i'm mad hor, nice lor)

so yeah, now back at home... i think i'll go for a short run at the front of my house... cause well i nth to do also until 5pm when i have to go back school for some briefing lar... how boring is that? hahahah... so yeah, i'll just waste time and slack mayb catch a short short nap! yeah... how nice is that? ((:

i'm on applying face mosturizer, the white white stuff (note:it's not oliver sauce) hahah... that's just plian disgusting lar... ewww...totally... hahahah... i needa look my best! hahaha... got something coming up, thats gonna be a surprize! hahaha... so stay tuned!!

and for those people out there! dont worry! i'll update often now!! (:

wee~! signing offf~~ =D

2008-07-27T01:48:00.003+08:00

LIBRA - The Harmonizer(?!?) (Sept 23 - Oct 22)

Nice to everyone they meet (I so am la!). Can't make up their mind (OMG! so true, that's why i like think ALOT). Have own unique appeal. Creative (yes), energetic (very very), and very social (to the extend of omgz). Hates to be alone (i dun wanna be alone so please dont leave me alone..). Peaceful (inside), generous (i know i know). Very loving and beautiful (ewwww?? =.=). Flirtatious(u have no idea! XD). Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible (hard to believe but i am, i just put on a tough front).

BLUE - TRUE
RED - MY COMMENTS
GREEN - WTF? NEED I SAY MORE?

YAY! my third post for the day!! wow! trying to make up for the posts i didnt post!

i'm just someone with no life and nothing to spare...

2008-07-27T01:37:00.002+08:00

well, it's 1:40am in my house right now... i've been thinking alot and well just thinking...

i'm bored, i seriously am, i dunno wat to do right now? should i sleep? should i stay awake? i wanna talk to somebody... but got no one le! sianness...

i just realised how lonely i am... how sad is that? =D

MOVIES UPDATES!!

2008-07-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

yay! weekends have always been the time to catch movies! and yes, altought tickets are raging mad expensive at 9.50 and the people are like hording the cinemas on weekends, it sure beats having movies on weekdays cause everyone has smth on!! ):

so yeah, over the past 2 weekend i've watched 4 movies! thats right... actually judt 2 movies but i watched 1 movie thrice!! and parently thrice on the same day (=.=)"... guess which?

.........

..........

IT'S..................

THE DARK KNIGHT!

it's damn awesome lor! seriosuly damn nice and it's really worth ur money! 2hours and 30mins of great action and mad criminals! so why so serious? watch it!!! =D

then today, i went town with my malay frens (OMFG, zaid has freaking malay frens?!?!) and watched another new movie... hahahaha.. damn unglam i tell u, they went to giordano lar! wtf?! i was like wearing so nice nice and carrying nice nice thing... wtf.... dicks sial! but nevermind, the movie was most important!!

the x-files!! i wanna believe....in sex! hahahahaha.... tt's right...!!! (: no lar, wat kinda person am i? but x-files not bad but realli some sick scenes!! =s

anyways, that's all for my update today!! hahahah... (: cya people!

CAMWHORE!!! YAY!

2008-07-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

ZAID IS SUCH A CAMWHORE!! YES I AM!!! (:

SOME PICTURES TAKEN BEFORE COUNCIL FIESTA TODAY! HAHAHAHA... SO FUNNY... I LOOK SO FUNNY TOO!! HAVE FUN!!

YAY! LI YING, ME, AND CHRISTIE!!! WE LOOK AWESOME!
AISYAH, LI YING AND ME TRYING TO APPEAR INSIDE!! (:
ME AND LI YING, WITH KIAN TAT TRING TO BE A SLUT! HAHAHAH!
AND FINALLY! ME, AISYAH AND KIAN TAT AGAIN TRYING TO MAKE AN APPEARANCE! SO ACT CUTE LAR! =D

OMFG! I'm FINALLY UPDATING!!! AHHH! =D

2008-07-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

well well well!!! guess wat i'm finally...FINALLY gonna have an update today!!! OMG!lets all rejoice... i figured that i shuld update now or forever hold my peace as my blog would just die off... ): now, we wouldnt want that to happen would we?? hahaha...

my blog's like literally dead and people are like asking me to update, it's not that i dont want to, just that i dun realli have the time to blog thesedays cause of my realli hectic schedule... =/ so yea, sorry ppl! (:

so lets start the update with some photos!! yay! hmm... well we'll start with Eugenie's Early Birthday BBQ!! hahahah... @ Costa Sands East Coast!! the photos are courtesy of Josias, from Temasek Poly! *psst* SP rocks btw...

me with eugenie (: i look like so dark can??

me fanning the fire... it seems to be dying off... ): Eugenie with the 'wat just happen' look.. :D

i look so weird in this one... notice the stain on my left shoulder...thanks to eugenie la!! ):

fittin the candles on the super chocolate chocolate cake from THE ROYALS! damn nice, and very very very sinful! ):

so wats next?? hahahaha... i guess that was on her mind... (:

so yeah, eugenie is actually from ngee ann polytechnic, and i met her thru poly forum and well we have been frens ever since... sha calls me her glam fren.. LOL~! hahaha... well her birthday was fun and she was damn funny throughout it!

hahahah... but after i left i realised i didnt eat anything, not even the cake... LOL! so yeah was kinda starving but nevermind... (: then that night she liked called me when she got drunk and said several weird weird things which i shuld not disclose in my blog..!! =o

well lets update about school! well school been realli busy!! realli freaking busy! i mean, i have my normal school to think about, plus my FYP (final year project), MM Club stuff, Student Council and my own personal life... ok...

firstly, i'm realli finding some difficulty coping with my studies just cause i just either am too tired or i'm just lazy... hahaha... and some modules can realli drive me up the wall! i'm like seiously damn stressed as i dun wanna forward or flunk any modules!! ):

secondly, well, next sem will be entirely a full semester of FYP la! and right now we have to brainstorm ideas and just discuss on the things we wanna do la, i mean my mind so packed still must think this shit!!

thirdly, MM Club, i tell u ah, i'm like seriously trying to hold the club together and making everything run smoothly and i try to be nice at the same time and give them their own targets to set... but some people just arent helping, breaking the rules, not following their own deadlines, not wanting to do it the proper way, not wanting to help... there's like a whole entire list i could draft down right now... it's not that they dun want to, it's just they just dun think or they just dont care!! i mean, am i being to nice to u people? then when i scold u all u either say i treat u like shit or i am just being to strict... i mean wtf! look lar... i dunno how to handle things like that... i mean at least help la! do wat ur post is suppose to do?! is it that difficult!? do i have to keep reminding u guys and chasing u all for ur deadlines?? HUH!?!! u all ah, seriously, one day i'm gonna farking give it to u all straight... i dun care if u're gonna hate me just as long at MM Club has a future to look forward to... think la! all i ask it simple simple things, before u leave the club, push all the chiars in, tidy everything up and make it look need... i mean when u come u sit on the chair the bean bag, dirty the freaking carpet, dirty all the stuff then dun bother to clean!? wtf?! and u know i use my own money from my pocket to buy the carpet, the air freshner, the the dustbins and u all just treat them like shit... i mean, think la... u all... i also am ggod damn tired ok, but i dun sleep on the sleeping bag?! i mean think for others not for urself.... u're all just damn selfish! SERIOUSLY!

fourth, student council, ok, mayb being the Council Chairman sounds all awesome and powerful but yeah, it's not the whole thing... there's so many thing to think thru and basically people are not helping i mean i'm trying to come to the best alternative for the entire council not just for ur own club people u slefish motherfuckers! think can for the entire council not for the best interest of UR club... ==

anf fifth and finally...my personal life... i think my personal life is like ebing burnt awaya by all my school activities and personally i dun have enough time for myself and things i wanna do... and i'm just slowly breaking down cause no one in this freaking world has the brains to care for others... seriously... all people think of is themselves.... honestly... EVERYONE IS! dun ask me i know.... ==

well update again soon... i wanna sleep! yay!

ROFL UPDATE!

2008-07-12T18:58:00.001+08:00

i'mma lazy to do this update...

so i'm not gonna update just yet..

LAWL...

:D

Soon... i promise.. (now where did i hear that from?)

am i a failure myself?

2008-06-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

well well i'm back to update! and this time it's realli soon, like one day soon! hahaha!! i'm actually amazed by myself~!! welll today end class pretty early like 2pm... then after that went to club to wait for dialogue session... it was like at 3.30pm and i have an hour and half to wait for th thing to start... but yea, there were others who had to wait even longer to go for the thing! hahahah... wat a pundek right?

then like went to fc3 to have lunch... had a little discussion which doesnt realli matter now cause it's wrong.... ): and then went back to club slacked awhile and everyone came and we made our way to vanda room to have the dialogue session...

dialogue session was damn damn funni cause it was like a race of who could present the fastest and blah blah blah and i ended up presenting like less than a minute... i mean MM doesnt need publicity, we're already so popular thanks to many great people!! hahaha.. *hint hint* not ma lar... i'm not some whore can?

then after dialogue session ate like some freaking hungry monster then eat eat drink like sugar coffee and sat down to talk about club matters with mdm sung ying... we had a few laughs here and there and well it was ok... i'm geared up to fight! hahaha... anyways, it's ok... we'll see how things take up to us... (:

then went for the parents seminar breifing that will happen this saturday to prepare ourselves... hahahaha... had some laughs there was pretty funny la the CASS lecturer! hahaha... then after that went back club and back home! yay!!

well i just wanna add a last note... i've realised i've been giving something in life which i have used to a great extend to create lot of things and remake things for other people... but i always do things for people le, and i'm figuring will someone do something for me? hahaha... just a question....

and yes, i finally understand things better... and even though things are confusing i hope it'll get better, cause i want it to get better... and for once for me to feel better... ((:

UPDATE TIME

2008-06-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

i'm back for another update!! hahahaha... well gonna have lots of photos for this one! lets start with wat i've done....

first i have reset my ipod setting so it looks like the normal boring unhacked one cause got problems but yeah, hu cares about tt thing... hahahaha... music is all i need... ((:

so this is how it looks like now... ((: but yeah, kinda miss the before reset one... ):

oh! i've got this thing from the ball ball game that u put $1 x2 and turn the thing than the ball comes out! hahahah... cool hor? i was hoping for the blue one... i wonder why? x)

then yeah, club has been recently going to sentosa to tan and have fun... and i'm like seriously malay shade now fyi... hahahaha... damn damn dark but nvrmind, give me like a week and i'll return back to my normal shade.... hahaha... so it'll be like so terrible... but i have to admit the tan now looks not bad actually so i'm not too pissed about it.. LOL

so this is like a picture of 3 ang moh that fatin and zulaikha were eying during the whole thing... well they onli eyed this one guy which was ok lar... like so perverts can? hahahaha... like laughing and giggling like whores! x)

another photo of the terrific trio... eeewww..? hahahaha... fatin u want the photos??? hahahah... XD

and well, today has been a tiring day.... i went to check the security cameras in SAC to find the culprit... and i have a rough idea of who it might be so yar.... anyways, if i catch the freaking culprit i'll make his life a living hell... trust me.... well a short post but it's ok! =D

update again........ SOON

soon... very soon.. =D

2008-06-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

will update soon!! very soon... been a tiring and realli awesome week!!

so wait for the update y'all! (:

SUPER RANDOMNESS

2008-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

well ello again! i'mma back for another post... well this one's a lil different le, cause this is just some stupid random things... hahah..

1)i hate it when u trust me people too much but that make use of it...HATE!
2)common people, if u dun like someone or despise someone, at least have the guts to admit it, and like dun try to pretend u mother-fucker...
3)i dunno why but people can live with themselves even when they know they had done damage..
4)if u never do something, at least have the guts to admit it and dun try to give excuses can?
5)people dun appreaciate the thoughts of others and everything is like dirt..
6)i dun like people who think they are responsible but show no sign of it at all...
7)i dun understand why some people cant simply grow up? like wtf? u think u peter pan?
8)there is a reason for everything so accept it, dun be in denial....
9)we were born perfect, nutured imperfect.... god makes no mistake, humans do...
10)the truth hurts...

LOL... super random... got it from from different internet articles... hahhahahah... WTF right? hahahaha... so yar... i think some of them are cool... so yar... see you.... =D

tmr is OBS at Ubin! yikes~!

20 RANDOM FACTS!

2008-06-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

Toh Lin Tagged me todo this random thing so yar...
Do for FUN and i'm bored!! seriously...

Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1)i'm a emo boy.
2)i've got a BIG butt.
3)i just woke up! LOLs
4)my right eye is small as compared to my left eye! WEIRD~
5)my favourite drink is Ice Lemon Tea.
6)I'm really high maintanence, REALLY.
7)i'm tired of living already so yar, can someone take my life away?
8)i LURRVE japanese cuisine! yum yum~
9)i'm reallly is freaking retard sometimes, but at least i know of it! =D
10)i'm onli 18 years old ok~! not old old!
11)i've a great sub-concious in me which help me decide things.
12)i like to think alot when doing something even the slightest details cause i'm a perfectionist!
13)i wanna get a new phone.. ):
14)my favourite colour is BLUE!!!
15)i've like a weird stomach, i can eat alot, or dun eat for very long and still be the same! WTF?
16)i'm like damn mean sometimes, but when i'm nice i'll be realli nice... =/
17)i dun like to hate people, it's hard work i tell u..
18)i wanna travel ard the world and shop!! =D
19)i think dragonboat rules are the most LOSERISH RULES ever!
Rule1: Must always aim to be 1st
Rule2: Remember rule 1
Remember, 2nd is still a loser, 1st is CHAMPION! (LIKE WTF?!)
20)if i want something, i'll be sure to get it...

i'mma DONE!
so yar, toook like 7 minutes!
so people: denan, oliver, shafinaz, huishan, reeve, khalis, miswan!
YOU"VE BEEN TAGGED BY ME!! =D

KUNFU PANDA

2008-06-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

WEEE~!! this is like the must watch show of the month or for the time!! i've watched it 3 times!!!! WTFH right? but damn nice!! hahahahahah.... so yar... this is awesome!! and, "THE IS NO CHARGE FOR AWESOMENESS!!!" hahahaha... watch watch watch... if u need kaki to go with tell me... i dun mind number 4!!

Malaysia trip!!

2008-06-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

ok... after like a god damn long time of not posting!! i'm back with a new post!! gonna like post bout like Malaysia trip!! to Kuala Lumpur...! Awesomeness!! with tohlin&eugene, desiree&huixian, denan, oliver, fatin and ME!

so yar, we set off like friday morning! supposed to meet at kranji at 7.00am! and fatin was like, "dun be late guys" and like i reached there like 7.10am (oops)... but yeah guess hu reached like 7.24am?? FATIN!!! LOL... yeah, so much for not being late! anyways, from kranji we took like 170 to like the malaysian imigrations and then all the way to like Larkin Terminal, which was like super disgusting...

then right we reached larkin, wanna find bus, this bunch of obnoxious malay guys wanna sell ticket like way above the seeling price like the usual is RM24 they sell RM36!! motherfuckers! then yea, we manage to get the 9am bus! hahah... then yeah we had Mcdonalds!! yar damn sick lar we all ate mac, especially OLIVER! he chew the french fries put on the tray ann then he eat back!! WTF!? damn disgusting!! OMFG!

yeah, then we bought some stinking, STINKING dunkin' donuts to eat during the bus ride la... hahaha... then we boarded the bus, got some problems but nvrmind, malay language in malaysia is like KING! hahahaha... then settle liao, we sat down and i was like, 'DONUT TIME'! then everyone was like whore...

and then yeah, as the bus start moving, the couples, they started like their kinky activities!! i mean WTF! u're in a public bus!! BAS MALAYSIA! hahah... then yeah, played psp, slept, ate donut, crapped, gossiped and alot during the whole bus trip... took so unglam pictures of people sleeping, especially oliver(drooling), denan(holding his tool)... hahahah..

then yeah, finally reach kl... then yea wanted to walk to the hotel but was approached by some indian taxi divers, my god keep touching me la, i know i'm hot but yar.... hahaha... lol.. perv... so yea, took their cabs to the hotel which we like 10mins walk away... and charge us RM15... WTF! hahah... nvrmind la, holiday... then yeah, checked into the room, then found out needed to pay a deposit of Rm800 for the two rooms so yar, just took a room and like had to share with like 8people... == but yeah, we didnt realli intend to sleep...

then after putting our bags down and freshing up...we went to have lunch at like Times Square!! Chciken Rice shop... huixian was like 'which chicken rice shop', i was like, 'THE chicken rice shop', he was like, ' yar i know but which one?' i was like 'Times Square lar'... then he asked, 'wats the name?' i was like '==, the name is the chicken rice shop!' LOL... damn funni..

then yar, eat like whores, camwhored a lil... then yea, got damn full but still, i wanted to have laksa!! hahaha... the rest were like ' are u crazy!?' well i mean, it's a one day thing so must enjoy mar!! then after that went ard shopping and like we split up and like to walk ard and meet later on..

so yar, i walked ard, ended up buying this stipe blue(notice this) crocodile shirt, damn nice..!! then yea, went to the meeting point, starbucks, bought a java chip venti and waited... tohlin bought a shirt, it said ' i love starbucks'... then denan bought like smth for Ratna! so sweet.. then yar, continue walking ard for a lil while at times square cause i wanted to see smth... then next stop was like Sungei Wang... we walked thr cause like damn near... then yar, inside we split up again and i went with denan and oliver to find oliver a brand new pair of shoe! hahah... walk walk then oliver eyes could attention of this black BUM shoe, he tried, seemed damn nice(i wanted it but i couldnt buy it cause oliver wanted it and unglam to have same thing) and then he bought it... DAMN!! then walked ard, i saw this blue(see this again) converse shoe, damn nice try, look damn nice then i was like wait ah, i walk ard and think... then after walking ard, denan and oliver was like tempted to buy so many many things but yea, got constrains!! haha... then finally i decided to buy the shoes and yea denan was like 'i only say the shoes was nice cause matching with ur blue and white outfit today' THE FUCK?!! so yea, i have happey with the blue(there again) shoe!

well next the plan was to go to mid valley to like have dinner and shop but to get there was a bad idea so we just went Pavilion! hahah... we walked and all of them were like amazed by the pavilion, so was i... then we went to find a food place...went food republic... OMG! damn awesome, the spread of food was like whoa!! then like walked ard could decide wat to buy so yar... tempting... finally i bought some western steak thing and wanton noodles!! hahah... i was hungry and obnoxious wat could i say??

then after eating walked ard... then yea, the smokers went to the cigar shop, try act like pro but like damn noob... then finally they bought a cigar RM43... hahah... i was like 'denan, u rather buy a cigar without thinking than a polo t that u thought so much but nvr buy?" so yar he gave it a thought... hahah...

then after walking ard pavilion, i met my sister bout my plans tmr to join her after the rest left.. talked awhile, then she left, i joined my frens back and then pavilion was like closing... and fatin was complaining, 'LA SENZA BRA!!!! NOOOO!!!' she was like mighty despo for them la... the hell... the guys were like WTF? then we slowly walked back to the hotel and bathe one by one... the rest of the smokers went to smoke their fine cut by dunhill... losers... then after that watched HULK! haha... stupid advertisements so many lar... then the girls wear their weird facial masks which they bought... hahaha... then we jokes talked alot then suddenly like the guys wanted to smoke their cigar... then they went to smoke... at first like so noob, then they got the hang of it... then smoke outside the room until the manager cameup and said only can smoke in the room... so yar, they smoked in the toilet instead... then right after they smoke ah, like happy.. haha..

then like the two couples took over both the bed and i was like, 'haiz...' i mean yar not nice to say but yar, u get the idea... i mean share can? like wat lar... just take the bed and start cuddling and hugging... WTF! so yar, then after hulk wanted to go macs, then walked there bought a hell lot of food and blah blah shit and walked back... then like yar, in the hotel we ate and joked... then after eating the two couples slept on their nice warm beds with the nice blankets and all we had was like the floor, the stinking floor... then well me fatin denan and oliver played brigde like until we lost most of our energy and then fell asleep... i dunno wat denan and oliver were doing but they kept giggiling la... wtf... hahah...

then sleeping sleeping, i'd wake up cause like super cold so yar need to adjust temperature, then later too hot adjust back... i woke up like 4 times la!!! then after awhile oliver was like sleeping on the chair... haha.. i was like HUH??

then yea, one by one got up, bathe and got ready for the last day....well not mine... then like yar, bathe already, decided to have KFC for lunch! fatin left with her mum cause he mum picked her up at the hotel and they were holidaying thr... so yeah, we walked to kfc! hahah... i ordered like a 3 piece meal cause i was mighty hungry! eat eat eat, then yar had to send them to the busstop so me oliver and denan walked to help denan train for marathon while the rest took a cab... then walk walk walk and rain, run abit and we reach like faster than the taxi bitches... hahah... then like they went into their bus and then they set off to singapore... i kinda missed them a lil... then later on, my sister fetched me up... hahaha...

then like yar, my sister like way awesome!! then yeah the first day was just hell lot of eating with her... after i left the bus station, went to have 2nd lunch at chciken rice shop... ate like no tmr again... then dinner had some malay fried food thing... so yeah first day not much....

now second day!! hahaha... went out like 1pm... then like went to mid valley... had my haircut at the redken salon, my sister asked so i just said ok! then had like kenny rogers for lunch, i ate a half chicken!! and after i was still hungry... then walked ard, cause my sister wanted to buy laptop but yea, she like dunno wat to buy...

then after looking ard for laptops, went to the zara there! omg... so nice and big! hahaha.. then yar, i saw the stiped blue(again) and black jacket i wanted... tried it on.. then was damn nice... so yar my sister say ok, i'll buy for u! OMG! damn awesome... then i looked ard see got anything nice and yar, got a few but nvrmind next time...

then like next walked to the gardens, beside only, went to GAP bought this blue(again) shirt was damn damn nice... my sister was like so plain onli but yea was damn nice... then walked ard, see see and then we go and window shop here and thr, i wanted to buy a new bag but none were to my liking... then next went to like Times Square.. i went to the shop tohlin bought her shirt from and bought two abercrombie polo t from there, blue(again) and yellow(finally).. hahah... then walked down to crocodile again, looked ard saw nth nice already then went to body shop... hahaha... tried a few perfumes, then my sister bought them for me... hahaha... she's awesome!!

then like she then toke me to like pavilion... hahah... walked ard... and then decided to have lunch at sakae sushi... she was like damn noob i tell u... hhahaha... then let her try a few things and eat and was like damn full... then walked ard again... keep looking for that bag i so wanted but dun have... how sad... then afterwards went to macs to but food to bring back to the home incase i get hungry... hahahah... thenwent home... happy and content... then reach home liao right, ate the macs and watched the tv... super boring all malay shows...

then i fell asleep but was kinda sad needed to return sg the next day... so yea, slp and next day woke pretty early, and like cause i wanted to shop summore... haha... so yea, went back to mid valley, ate kenny rogers again!! i ate another half chicken! lol... then ate 3 packets of tako balls... wtf!! hahaha... then continue walking ard and ard but yeah nth nice... had some icecream, bought my mum donuts to bring back, my dad some of his favourite curry puff and then i headed for the bus station to go back singapore!! then like went onto the bus and yar... had my journey home alone and quietly... was kinda sad but once i got home, i had like 40smses la... wtf... onli gone for like 3 days can...

so yar... home was good! and well it was nice to be back... yay!! so tt was a KL trip.. kinda boring eh?

truly something worth waiting for..

2008-06-05T10:23:00.000+08:00

ytd was a good day... yay! well apart from waiting 2hours, which i didnt mind, it was the best day i've had up to date...

Is this right?

I know i've been gone...

I know i've been wrong...

But for once i want to make it right...

Not for me alone....

Not just for you either....

For....

by chance again?

2008-06-01T20:08:00.001+08:00

well, today's post is gonna seem a lil blurr to some people but for those who know well, u'll know i guess..

ytd, i met someone who i've not met for almost 9mths and it so happens that i msged that someone the night before saying alot of things... and well, ytd, the gang and i went out again, to whr we usually go. city hall... so yeah we met at like 2pm at city hall mrt.. so some wanted to go buy chippy at the marketplace at raffles city shopping centre... so we went thr, and well, for the whole day i have been feeling slighty down.. and well just wasnt realli excited... then after buying we went back to the cuty hall mrt to sit at the stairs area to like wait.. after going up from the marketplace escalator i had a sudden urge to turn back to look around, and i guess by chance and guess wat i saw someone whom i hadnt seen for almost 9mths, and it's not i dun want to, i realli wanted to, but i just couldnt...

and so we walked tot the mrt station and i just wanted to go back up to look again so i like pretend pretend want to go LEVI's to look for wallet just to go back up, but sadly when we ent back, well the person wasnt there anymore... i guess this is wat happens if u dun act fast enuff.. =/

and so yeah, afterwards the rest came and we walked to marina square... and all i could ever think about was like, mayb, well just mayb i might meet the person again, by chance... and well first stop at marina was topman! well i tried soem clothes but yeah werent realli in the mood to shop so yeah just waited for the girls... then i had another urge to turn back, and this time, i saw the person again... i was kinda excited and scared so i just kept tomyself and went to the girls corner... and then i was kinda like scared and i just didnt know wat to do so i just stood there... and then we both saw each other and i smiled but i was to scared... so then we left topman for zara, before leaving the shop i took a quick glance back at topman to see, but i didnt manage to catch a ckear view...

then at topman just walked ard and i was like just thinking and thinking thru... and then we had lunch at MOF! i haven been there for the past 10mths... for as long as i could remember, just brings back memories... and then had wat i'd usually have, hot stone unagi rice!! hahaha... then
the person msged me, and to be honest i was god damned happy!! super... huishan tried to see who but yeah i blocked!!! =P heheheh...

then i asked if we could meet even for just a short period of time... cause i owe that person that much and i wanted to make up for it... haiz... and then yeah we met, and a whole lot of coincidences happen throughout it.... i dunno whether is just pure coincidence or smth else..... i dunno... i hope things are right... am i too late? who knows, i dun hate u if u hate me, i dun blame u if u dun care... but i just hope u do.. =/

UPDATE UPDATE!!!

2008-06-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

well i'm finally updating after 5days of non-updating... LOL! anyways, yeah, i'm not lazy for not updating or anything, just been busy ok! HAHAHAHAHA! =D yeah well updating is always fun when u've got something to update about so yeah today i do! hahah...

so yeah, i woke up early like 9am today... and yeah my mum and dad were fixing breakfast! hahah... they made fish and chips... yum yum... so yeah, me woke up, took like a 30min shower... felt pretty good about the day.. then grab some clothes to wear and then had my breakfast! hahaha... then just like sat ard the house doing nth till it was 12pm so i just left my house...

yeah, went to the MRT to get my concession.. then waited for the bus to town! hahaha.. then yeah reached town pretty early, went to GELATISSIMO to help a lil' then i went to STALK Huishan!! hahahaha... then also found weisum.. but sadly did see karen!! NOOOOO.......!!! went topman looked ard was tempted but no, i controlled!!

then yeah i went feng yuan and his nephews... one was this ang moh, damn obnoxious like never stop talking and crapping la.. == the other one was like super duper quiet i tell u.. == like two way opposites! then yeah, we went to the lido cinema place to buy popcorn.. oh yar before i go any further and u people start think wrong things the only reason why i'm watching Narnia with Feng Yuan is cause someone couldnt make it so i just kpo and go!! hahah!!

so yeah i bought a medium popcorn with was like super duper alot so yeah made our way to the cinema! hahaha... the nephew just didnt stop talking the whole way.. == then yeah, after going into the cinema, i just started munching on the popcorn and we listened to the Sex in the city music soundtrack! hahaha... damn lame..

then the movie started...

well the movie was not bad la... hahaha... got some comedy inside too! but i prefer the first series... Choronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe.. hahaha... the little rat was DAMN cute! hahaha... anyways yeah, was nice to watch such a show.. haha..

then after that, me and fengyuana nd nephews walked ard and i went topman... tempted to buy stuff buut yeah, i resisted again!!! hahaha... i'm like too good for this! hahaha...

then after that walked back to shaw and yeah someone was stalking me and called me!! AHHHH!!! i feel no longer safe... went to find that person and yeah then fengyuan left... before he left he ask me look after the topman polo t he bought... cause he wanted to go clubbing.. =_=

then me and my stalker followed em to the busstop and talked alot of crap... then i went home and yeah had my dinner... and he i am... blogging...

now...how was ur day? (:

CONFUSED and angry?

2008-05-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

!!! WARNING!!!

!!!!EMO POST AHEAD!!!!

well, it's this point of time when zaid goes E-M-O-ing!! yeah.. those realli RARE occasions huh?! (lame ==') anyways yeah, as the title of the post goes to say, i'mma confused and angry... confused and angry but about wat? see that's where i'mma confused again... i dunno wat to be confused and angry bout? should i be angry with my life, my frens, god (oh dear... ): hope not), my family, or just myself? and why should i be confused about? confused about how i ended up whr i am now, confused why things turned out this way for me, or just confused at my luck?

then smtimes, i look out of the window late at night and ask myself, why is my life always so screwed up? i cant seem to live the way i want to, not even once have i been content with life no matter how simple i want it to be... =/ or mayb it's just me thinking too much... i can no longer seem to keep track of the number of times i keep telling myself, "hey, life's not so bad, there's someone else out there probably suffering more...be positive...!"and then i'd reach into my pocket to grab into my supply of smiles for one and paste in whr my lips should be resting...

then a breeze would blow onto my cheeks and my cheeks would feel cold... and i would feel my cheeks only to find them wet... and so i walk back into the room, and lay on the bed... and as fall into my own heaven, my surrounddings seem like a blur and all thats felt is me, laying on a wet pillow....

(:
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and
I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
(:

2008-05-17T00:13:00.004+08:00

HOROSCOPE!!

LIBRA MAN (does in red is so true)

A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool, calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side ofaggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimeshe can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balancehimself most of the time.

To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. he always set and comb his hair asif he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are goodlooking (no?), even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too.

When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with.In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation.

Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sitstill and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night(so VERY TRUE).

Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have tobe a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is alwayssomething in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over.

A straight forward , no non-sense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back toc orrect them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate (YES!). He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention.

He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice.If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever.

He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes,he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separateloving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him. (OMG...read me like a book!)

Even he is a romantic man, he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this.

A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you (TRUE). Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will behappy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend tosee he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.

He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is aprivate person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

wow many thanks to desiree to send to me... wow... i think its damn cool! hahaha...

== yet another boring weekend passing by...

2008-05-17T00:13:00.003+08:00

well it has been another one of those boring weekends again.... at least this one is different... i didnt have my N95 with me... today marks the 1week anniversary of my lost fone... i feel damn sad and pathetic sometimes when i look at my current n70.... well, i guess i shuld start to get used to it rather than hopelessly waiting like i always have been in different expects in life.. HAHAH....

school has been going on smoothly and quite fine... and everything is kinda good i guess... graduation in this thurs! cant wait to see the seniors! hahaha... kinda missed them a lil' anyways yeah.... hahaha... other than day, next week got like a few tests here and thr so yeah, must buck up!!! wee~

well ytd after work, went to walk ard alone in town ==... till like 7pm then i decided to head home... after heading home, i made a stop at NTUC, figured since i had so much time, might as do some cooking! hahaha... so bought some shrimp, steak and fish! then yeah, i went home in glee~ cause i finally had smth to do...

first thing i did was marinate both the fish and the steak and then left in it the fridge to settle... hahah... then yeah, next peeled the prawns (hate doing this =='), and yeah after peeling, slice it into pieces to be made into the dumplings! hahahaha... then i wrapped the shrimps into the dumpling skins and TAADAAAH!

so next things was i stripped and took a shower.... XD the shower felt good and well the muscle strains in my body like relaxed! then after bathing,, LET THE COOKING BEGIN! so yeah, i i placed the fish in the steamer, the steak onto the flat faced pan and fried the dumplings! and i finished it all by 8.30pm! and then i realised, i didnt cook any rice!! == so yeah, i just ate it as it was... LOL... had a hell lot of dumplings leftover.... hahaha... but yeah dinner was HEAVEN!

then afterwards, tired to find someone people to talk to, managed to find one... hahaha... then yeah talked had some laugh and well then i jut slept... zzzz.....

*END LOR* =D

I am and still will be bored and sad

2008-05-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

well, lazy to blog today... no mood.... but yeah, just listen to the song... i love it...

makes me think of things i never though of before!

(:

life sucks!

2008-05-17T00:13:00.001+08:00

well, as some might have known, i have lost my phone! my N95 98GB! the fone that i spend 3 mths starving, (2mths during itp and 1 mth after cause i no money after buying)... and the fone that was like my most prized possesion was stolen from me at work... how? i dun wanna talk bout it...but i can tell u this i lost it at work... work sucks... i lost all my contacts and all my msges and all my personal stuff... so sad i tell u... but yeah, guess all things happen for a reason...

and i was working so yea, had to look happy and positive and attend to customers... damn annoying i tell u... people still want to provoke me.. so yeah, at work was serving customers and yeah, my frens fren came to like met him, girlfriend la, she came with two other gals... and yeah while serving they came to talk to me, ask if i was single, blah blah blah, then asked me for my number... x_x wth la... i just lost my fone... so it was kinda sad... and i was like haha... i lost my fone... but yeah, then the 3 girls keep saying i was cute, wtf man, i'm not cute?! me? nabei, people got eyesight deformation or wat? hahaha...

girls stop asking me for my number and stuff pls... i no mood to entertain if u say good things bout me cause i dun think i'm that good... i'm just normal, or below average? hmm.. hu knows...

then yeah after that made a police report of my fone and went home at 2am sad... i kept plaing with my fone box cause well i misssed my fone... i realli do... haiz... i wanted to hold it so badly... like it just sucked... fiddle witht the box for a long time and then kept it in the drawer.. then slept...

then today called in sick for work cause i just felt damn sick and no mood... when my grandma's place at tampines, wearing, slipper, jeans and a t-shirt and my hair was all over the place... so then told my dad to drop me at taka to make a new sim card and well, walking ard orchard dressed like tt means u r just weird and (f)ugly so yeah people kept looking like i was some begger... met someone i didnt need to met yet and i was like wtfh!!?! i just avoided... then got my sim card and like used it! wee~

then headed to suntec met the gang cause oliver wanted to buy a present for some girl.... so yeah, oliver and denan had their haircuts and well looked pretty awesome i might say... hahaha... then we went pizzza hut... i wasnt felling the least happy at all so yeah, just pretended to be happy and then at one pt i just stood up and decided to walk away... i walked to the toilet whr i sat on in the cubicle and i cried abit... i was just...nvm.... after that went back and then i just tried my best to seem happy...and we ate, oliver bought a ripcurl wallet for the girl and then went topman...

oh man, i dunno why i did it but i felt like killing myself... i made jy buy smth which later he regretted cause well it wasnt realli a must to have but i made it seem so good to buy.... haiz... i'm sorry jian yao... pls forgive me.. ): and well, after that went home... i felt sad... and some guy kept looking at me, took the same bus, still looked and then looked but pretend never look.... but yeah, he was not bad looking but yeah, sorry i dun do that... hahahah... =D

and i reach home and here i am again.... lurving it! (: i miss my fone...